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Welcome to Adaptable | Behavior Explained! This episode goes over how we work. The time gap between stimuli and our response is crucial for us to tap into our most adaptable adult selves. When triggered, our prefrontal cortex temporarily shuts down, allowing only instinctive reactions, which can lead to feelings of disappointment, anger, or shame. We often wonder why we struggle to "act better" despite knowing better. In this episode, we'll delve into the reasons behind this and explore ways to unlearn unhelpful adaptations. This is Part 1 of 2
I'm Kelly O'Horo, Attachment based EMDR Therapist, EMDRIA Consultant, and Advanced Trainer. I'm a mom of 5, Nonna of 5, wife, and a healer. I have the honor of spending my workdays walking along side people while they brave their healing journeys. I try to live with the generous assumption that we're all doing the best we can with what we know. Therapists are teachers for the "life stuff" and "emotional vocabulary" that may not have been learned due to gaps in our care givers capabilities. In the last 15 years I've learned that people are freaking amazing, resilient, and inspiring. Most importantly, we are hardwired for connection and for healing!
I hope to bring an authentic, compassionate, and unpolished approach while we explore a variety of topics such as parenting, marriage, relationships, dating, trauma, attachment, adoption, depression, addiction, anxiety, and love! There's a why for all behaviors and an explanation that makes perfect sense as emotion is at the root of it all.
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foreign
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I'm Kelly ohoro and this is adaptable
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Behavior explained and today we're going
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to talk a little bit about how we work
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and why we show up the way that we do
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and how our environments and our lived
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experience affect us I'm going to share
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with you information about emotions
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about some neurobiology about our limbic
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systems about how stimulus in our
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environment affect the way that we show
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up and we are either going to fight
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Freeze flee or submit and these are
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hardwired into us
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I'm going to also talk about
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symptomology that shows up with my
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clients and and clients everywhere as
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well as why we do the things that we do
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and I'm gonna I'm gonna explain this to
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you in a way that I explained to my
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clients at the beginning of treatment
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when they come in to deal with whatever
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issues are currently bothering them and
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what in areas of improvement they're
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looking for so we're going to talk first
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about emotion emotion is the predictor
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of all Behavior it's absolutely critical
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to understand that emotion is chemical
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we don't have an option when it comes to
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emotion we can no more control our
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emotion then we can control our blinking
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or our heart rate and so when people say
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you know you need to just stop feeling
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so anxious or why don't you just settle
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down or why did you get so angry people
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are so judging themselves or others
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about this emotional expression and it's
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really an unfair thing because although
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we can learn to create some space
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between the stimulus and our bodies can
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learn how to slow down ultimately when
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we're triggered or we're reactive we
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don't have much choice in how we show up
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when it comes to emotion which is why we
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what ends up happening is we are
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followed by a bit of a shame spiral when
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we show up in a way that we're not happy
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with or in a way that doesn't match our
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truest self and then we judge ourselves
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and we're we're bothered by how we
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showed up whether I got too angry about
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something or whether I'm so anxious when
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there's not really any danger or whether
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I shut down and I feel insecure when I'm
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in the presence of others that I feel
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inadequate around and so ultimately the
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emotion is first and oftentimes people
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come in because they are not happy with
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how they're showing up in their
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emotional expression doesn't match the
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person that they they say they are or
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how they want to move through the world
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so step one emotions we have to
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understand they are chemical in nature
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and they predict every single behavior
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from birth an example might be for
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example a curiosity or seeking we're
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breastfeeding from from birth to to
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seeking our mother's breasts so that we
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can uh smell and find our source of food
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seeking and curiosity are part of the
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circuit that wires us to move toward
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that behavior and so again emotion is a
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is the greatest predictor for every
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single behavior and it's first and it's
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chemical the second thing I want to talk
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about is symptomology when people come
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to see us
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they want to talk about what they do
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maybe they're too angry maybe they don't
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have an interest in something perhaps
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they are struggling with some disordered
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eating habits or behaviors maybe they're
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emotionally overwhelmed at times when
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they don't want to be
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perhaps they are irritable or they're
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dealing with sleep disturbance maybe
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they're numbing maybe they have
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behaviors like
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um you know constant scrolling or
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numbing out with TV
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YouTube perhaps they're doing things
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like uh over planning over functioning
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caretaking maybe they have panic attacks
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maybe they're too hyper Vigilant they
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can't sit at a restaurant with their
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back uh to the door you know there's
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things that they're dealing with perhaps
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dysregulation that they don't want they
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don't want to deal with they don't want
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to have these sources of discomfort and
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so we call those symptoms and quite
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frankly we call them symptoms of trauma
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ultimately we've been through something
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that's created an adaptation that's no
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no longer useful and we need to make
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sure that we find a way to
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down regulate our nervous systems and
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unlearn behaviors that were not so
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useful so that we can relearn something
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that's more adaptive and useful for our
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adult selves today
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so we have our symptoms or our behaviors
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or experiences that are no longer useful
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they're maladaptively encoded in our
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memory and they're not serving us today
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so that's that's what we would call our
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symptoms or our problematic behaviors or
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our experiences we no longer want to
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deal with and so those would be kind of
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like a chief complaint when it comes to
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being in therapy we would talk about
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these are things we want to work on next
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we're going to talk about how it gets
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there how our memory is encoded so we
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have explicit and we have implicit
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memory
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and a lot of people really undervalue or
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minimize the the memories that take
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place that are not so much loaded are
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explicit memory that are tied together
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by everything that we see that we smell
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that we that we taste that we experience
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in the world and in our environment
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people really minimize the things that
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happen before our brains are fully
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developed our brains are only 25 percent
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developed at birth because they'd be too
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large for us to fit through the birth
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canal and so we have all of this memory
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that is implicitly stored that means
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cellularly stored in our bodies that are
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not necessarily tied to data that
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matches what we see smell taste feel Etc
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and that implicit memory is also tied to
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epigenetics this is a whole entire
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doctoral degree which I am not a person
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that could give you enough information
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about that that's not my specialty but
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I've had the lucky anecdotal experience
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of watching my patients for 13 years and
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how much can be encoded that they can't
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even remember so our epigenetics happen
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to be two full generations of
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information that's stored in our body
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and we know this because of the
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Holocaust studies we had such a large
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group of people that experienced such
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treacherous conditions and in their
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nervous system
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lied information a threat of danger of
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anxiety and so what they realized is
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there's all of these babies that are two
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generations from Holocaust experience
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that are overly anxious that need to
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plan that are hyper Vigilant and what
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they recognized with this was this
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information is stored from their parents
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and from their parents so we are dealing
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with the histories of our grandparents
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and our parents and everything that they
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went through as well as our own personal
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lived experience and so it's really
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important to not undervalue your birth
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story your early years you know did your
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mom have postpartum depression did your
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dad lose his job when you were one years
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old and you don't remember it but
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everybody was so stressed out did one of
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your parents lose a parent
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or even more tragically you know are you
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a product of the foster care system
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where there was no consistency you
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didn't know where you were going to be
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living parents couldn't necessarily keep
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you maybe you were adopted and you were
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adopted at Birth and so you know that
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your parents that adopted you love you
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and it was such a gift to be adopted but
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there's still this inherently deeply
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hardwired memory that exists that is
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part of your makeup and so it's
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important that we don't minimize those
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experiences so for an example in an
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adoption if I'm pregnant and I'm
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carrying my baby
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the whole time I know I'm not going to
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be able to keep that baby I don't have
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the funds I'm perhaps too young you know
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maybe I just had another baby and I
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don't feel like I will give this baby my
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attention but I'm I don't know what to
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do so I carry my baby to full term I
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decide to go in and adopt and the whole
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time I'm feeling shame I'm feeling guilt
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I'm feeling sad baby is feeling all of
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that because emotion is chemical baby
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experiences what's going on out there is
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it my fault is it dangerous why is it
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that that my mom is feeling this way and
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I have no other frame of reference
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because I have no lived experience yet
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I'm just in utero getting cooked and but
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I know there's something going on and I
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attribute that to self so maybe I have
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like an incredibly powerful shame
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overlay that tends to kind of shut me
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down and shame is such an inhibitory
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emotion and response that oftentimes
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what that tells me as a trauma
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specialist is something happened very
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very early if I'm dealing with an adult
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that has a really profound shame
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response so again memory is really
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critical to understand that we have both
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implicit and explicit memories now
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explicit memories are the things that we
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can remember and three years old and I'm
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writing my bike and I crash really bad
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into a cactus and it's really painful
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and I'm sore and I'm hurt and I'm crying
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and I'm alone and I don't know what to
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do
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it's really important that we also
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recognize with memory that oftentimes
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trauma gets stored not necessarily
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because of what happened
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but sometimes it's because of what
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didn't happen
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so for example let's use that Cactus
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example and three years old I ride my
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bike into the cactus I'm distraught I'm
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in pain I'm confused I'm hurt I'm
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rattled my nervous system is upside down
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I go home and my mom goes I'm so sorry
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sweet girl that's so scary everything's
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awful I'm so sorry I'm gonna help you as
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fast as I can she kisses me on her
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forehead she tells me that she
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understands why I'm scared and that it's
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gonna be okay that memory might not be
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encoded maladaptively
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however another scenario could exist I
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go home my mom's overwhelmed she's just
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burned her dinner you know my sibling is
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crying she doesn't know what to do with
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everything the stimulus is too much for
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her nervous system so instead when I
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come in crying after I've crashed my
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bike into this cactus
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she says oh my gosh you again what
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happened now and so I'm now not met with
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compassion and now not met with Grace
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I'm not met with patience and so I feel
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now betrayed I feel like I'm a burden I
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feel like I did something wrong and so
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that memory might be encoded differently
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thus creating a traumatically informed
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response as I grow up so we've got two
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kinds of memory we've got explicit and
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implicit memory and these are important
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things to consider when we are talking
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about our stories and when we're
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thinking about how our experiences
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affected the way we show up today next
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we're going to talk about how those
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Chief complaints or those symptoms end
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up turning into problems and how the
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histories of our epigenetics and the
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originating events are so incredibly
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important to understand and in the way
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that we do therapy here at infinite
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healing and wellness and the way we
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believe is helpful is from a bottom up
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perspective so we want to talk about
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therapy from a bottom-up perspective and
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that is that we're not just going to
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talk about what happened to us because
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that very much dismisses or minimizes
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how our emotions and how our lived
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experience are thwarted in time and how
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they can get encoded maladaptively and
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how we can't just talk about something
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and feel validated and feel heard and
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understood because it won't change the
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way that we react when present ended
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with different stimulus or rather the
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same stimulus in the future that reminds
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us because it looks taste smells feels
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something like something in the past so
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let's say I have an accident in the
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future and it's a car accident and I've
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crashed my mom's car
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and I go to tell her and what got
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encoded because of the way she showed up
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for me when I was young was that I was a
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burden it was inconvenient she was you
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know disappointed and she was blaming
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when I came to her with a cactus memory
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and now I show up after I've gotten an
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offender Bender in her car and my body
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shows up in this way of being afraid to
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go tell her this thing happened and
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maybe I have a lot of experiences where
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she was kind and compassionate to me and
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that one was just one of those where
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she wasn't and so that one got a little
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bit lodged In My Memory it's encoded
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maladaptively and so when I go in the
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house to tell my mom about this fender
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bender I'm waiting I'm waiting for her
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to be disappointed I'm waiting for her
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to blame me I'm waiting her for her to
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not care about the injury that happened
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with me and so I'm tentative I don't
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feel like I'm going to be met with open
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arms and that is important to understand
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that the roots of the way I'm showing up
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is because of a memory that happened
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before now I walk in the door I tell her
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that I got in this fender bender and she
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goes oh my gosh that's so scary
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everybody's been an offender bender and
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so she meets me differently than my
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three-year-old self who was in the
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accident with the cactus and I'm kind of
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surprised by it because I was expecting
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and waiting for the other shoe to drop
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because of my memory before and so I'm
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lucky that she shows up for me in this
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compassionate loving way this time but I
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wasn't expecting it because it was so
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similar to the experience of when I was
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three
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so when people come to us with their
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presenting issues I want to be able to
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say let's look at what happened to us
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not just what's happening to us now but
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what happened to us before and so we
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have our symptoms our presenting issues
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that Chief complaint maybe I'm jumpy
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when I'm gonna go tell somebody that I
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did something wrong I'm anxious or I'm
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nervous when something bad happens
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because I'm expecting someone not to be
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kind to me and so I'm tentative and I'm
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a perfectionist and I never want to make
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a mistake and I am leery when I do and
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it's partly because of things that
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happened when I was young
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so we have these Chief complaints we
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have the epigenetic component that I
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talked about am I from a story or a
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family system where everybody was
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overwhelmed in my parents lives and and
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even more so people were overwhelmed in
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their in in their parents lives my
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grandparents lives and therefore there's
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a whole line of us that are sort of
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nervous anxious waiting for the other
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shoe to drop so we want to understand
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the epigenetics and in this picture that
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you're looking at this is this is the
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weather the metaphor of the weed what I
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like to make sure I share is this
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picture is is helpful to illustrate
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we're not just dealing with what
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happened right now or how you show up or
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act right now we're dealing with the
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which would we would call the symptoms
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or the top of the weed but we're also
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dealing with the roots the originating
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events where the negative beliefs about
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ourselves I'm not safe I can't trust I'm
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I'm powerless
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um you know it was my fault these are
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the beliefs that people come in and they
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talk about those are deeply rooted with
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the Mao adaptively encoded memories that
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are stored with the emotions that
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happened the first time the thwarted
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Sensations in our bodies that happened
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the first time and then of course the
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negative beliefs that we that we make up
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about ourselves as a result of what
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happened to us in the past
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and then we have to consider our
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epigenetics or the seeds that were
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planted and then the bad news is there's
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also seeds that are planted in our own
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offspring
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so we can we can
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um
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inadvertently pass along our epigenetic
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Tendencies and how we show up in the
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world
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uh into our Offspring the good news is
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is with EMDR therapy which is the kind
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of therapy that I'm going to talk about
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a lot in our podcast is
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it changes the way our brain fires and
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wires data and it changes the way
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information is encoded and it can change
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the way our methyl groups and our RNA
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are organized and it can change the way
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our DNA shows up in our Offspring so if
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you're if you're inclined to do the work
15:50
about yourself prior to having children
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there's an uh there's an opportunity for
15:56
you to change the way you will pass
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along DNA and information onto your onto
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your Offspring I'm not going to dig in
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too much to that into that topic because
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we could go on for weeks and weeks about
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DNA and RNA and I am certainly not the
16:11
expert in that topic so I don't want to
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speak out of scope
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so when we do EMDR therapy and one of
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the things that makes it different than
16:19
talk therapy is when you go to a talk
16:21
therapist you feel better you feel heard
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you feel validated and it's almost like
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they cut the top of that weed off and so
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there's a little bit more space it's not
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as robust it's not so ugly it's not so
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noisy and you'll feel a little bit
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better and we call that a state change I
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felt better I felt hurt I felt listened
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to I felt cared for
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and top therapy does that we can
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understand the why we can understand
16:45
what's going on we can even feel really
16:47
cared for and understood by our
16:49
therapist in that experience but the
16:51
problem with not getting to the root of
16:53
the matter to the source of the
16:55
maladaptively encoded memories
16:57
is that the next time it's sunny the
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next time it rains that weed just grows
17:02
again and so we don't take care of the
17:04
symptomology once and for all we don't
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eliminate that behavior and that
17:08
experience or the way that we're showing
17:10
up that maladaptive adaptation we don't
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eliminate that altogether and with
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bottom-up therapies like EMDR therapy or
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somatic experiencing therapy or sensory
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motor therapy or any mindfulness based
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Body Experience bottom-up therapy we can
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actually change the way our brain fires
17:30
and wires data and then when we're
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presented with stimulus in our
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environments we don't have to respond in
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the ways that we used to or react in the
17:40
ways that we used to instead there's
17:42
space between that stimulus and our
17:45
reaction and we can then show up with a
17:47
response that is more adult that matches
17:49
today's circumstances and it's not
17:52
informed by traumatically informed
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material in in other words a reaction
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and so if you're finding yourself
17:58
judging some of your reactions this
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could be something you could explore in
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your in your journey and in your healing
18:04
and in order to transform yourself into
18:07
the most authentic original Self that
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you were always meant to be before all
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the bad things that should have never
18:12
happened to you happened and so one
18:15
thing I do want to make sure I point out
18:17
is that that humans are incredibly
18:19
resilient and we're amazing and not
18:21
everything gets stored traumatically
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everybody is different our resilience is
18:27
different our genetics are different our
18:29
life our life experiences are different
18:31
and there are no two humans that are the
18:33
same so I really want to really want to
18:35
caution you not to be judging yourself
18:37
if you show up in one way when somebody
18:39
says something and you know your friend
18:41
doesn't and you don't understand what's
18:43
wrong with you we're not the same fruit
18:45
we are we are all different we're not
18:47
it's not apples and apples we are all
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um bringing to the table our different
18:51
perspectives our lived experiences our
18:53
genetics and so it's important to
18:55
remember that
18:56
we're all different so it's not fair to
18:58
judge yourself so as a quick recap today
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we talked about emotions and how we're
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hardwired for emotion and how they
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predict everything our symptoms our
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chief complaints what the problems are
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our memory and how memory is encoded and
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our epigenetics the root causes of why
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we show up the way we show up associated
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with those complaints thank you so much
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for tuning in today spending some time
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on your own self and your awareness you
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up and don't forget to lead with love
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it'll never steer you around
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thank you
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