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I knew I wanted to be a boy, but I was born female
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I knew I was trans at two years old. Growing up, I dressed in all boys clothes
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and my mom thought I was probably a lesbian. At 11 years old, I came out to my mom as transgender
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Dear mom, I feel like a boy trapped in a girl's body
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I was always a boy, and that's all I ever will be
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I felt overwhelmed, but I also felt scared, because I've never done this before
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I've been on testosterone for just over six years and it helps me to maintain my facial hair, to keep my voice low
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If I stopped taking testosterone, I would get monthly cycles and my chest would start growing
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So essentially I'd start de-transitioning. My name is Guy and I'm 21 years old
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I knew I was transgender at two years old. I feel like I was born in the wrong body
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I knew I wanted to be a boy, but I was born female. Over the years, testosterone has really changed my body in so many ways
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My legs don't come out as much as they used to, and they're a lot straighter and more masculine
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My facial structure is always changing, too. My jaw is more pronounced
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I started my medical transition when I was 12 years old. That's when I started my hormone blockers
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I was 16 years old when I started testosterone. When I look in the mirror, I'm like, wow, like I really like what I see
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I'm able to wear this type of jewelry and earrings and not feel, you know, super dysphoric about it
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So that's a really great change on testosterone that's helped me to feel really good when I look in the mirror
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There were so many little things and little nuances that led up to where I am today
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I made you some tea. You want to come and look at some photos with me? Wow, you're so tiny
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Yeah, my little face. Oh, I love this one. At two years old, I was with my little friend and I said
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Hey mom why don I have a male part like my friend over here And my mom was completely taken aback I was like thinking to myself oh wow what does that mean I think I made a mental note at that point to just
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wait and see and be open. Internally I was thinking you are probably going to be a lesbian
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Around like 7 or 8 years old, I already noticed that I wanted to do things that were out of the norm of a regular girl
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I dressed as a boy, I wore boy clothes, boy shoes, so I was always referred to as like the tomboy
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Tilting your head, it's just so typically you. Yeah. There you were like 11
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When I was about 10 or 11, I saw this documentary. Kids that are my age and younger expressing how they were assigned a certain gender at birth
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and they transitioned into the opposite sex. I saw the hormonal changes that they were going through
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and I saw the physical changes that they had and I was like, wow, I want that
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Guy, do you remember this? I certainly do. I can't believe you still have it
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Yeah, I kept it. I saw this kid come out to his parents, and I was so scared to do it
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I didn't know how. And as soon as I saw that he did it in a letter, oh, light bulb went off in my head
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So then I wrote this letter to my parents. An important message for parents in caps
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I remember noticing that on the table. I left it in the kitchen, and then I left to the living room
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I felt really scared to know how they were going to react
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Dear Mom, I am a boy. I feel like a boy trapped in a girl's body
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So you already know that I'm a tomboy, but I'm more than that
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On the inside, I was always a boy and that's all I ever will be
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My mom came back and said hey guy I read your letter I hear what you saying I want to support you I don know exactly how to support you but whatever next steps we have to take we will do it
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I don't remember exactly what I thought, but it was something akin to, there it is. And I've got to get my armor on and I've got to be ready for this journey with Guy
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I wanted to like cry. I felt so happy. I felt so relieved
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And like a huge burden was like taken off my body because I knew that I needed to express something at some point
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I felt strong, but I also felt scared because I've never done this before
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My mom actually ended up calling a therapist after that and we did a trial thing for about five, six months
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When I was 11, I was referred to this clinic. That's when I started my process of hormone blockers
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I wasn't going to continue going through female puberty. So I chopped off my hair, glows in a boy cup
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and sometime after that, before you know it, I was on testosterone. Fast forward to now, and I am the most comfortable I have ever been in my body
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I am so happy with it. I experienced very little dysphoria, and I am so grateful to the person that helped to make that happen for me
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I'm so grateful to have a mom like the one that I have, because if it weren't for her, I wouldn't be where I am today
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I'm so proud of you. I've always been proud of you, and you've been such a joy
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And I know I've been the greatest parent. You're such a ball of light, and I just want you to realize that. Don't let me take it away
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I'm so proud of you. So my girlfriend lives in England, and I met her on this really ridiculous app
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When we first started talking online, she had no idea I was trans. I decided to tell her after I suspected that she was part of the queer community as well I was like hey by the way I trans And she like oh cool And then moved on Basically you decided Because you all about trans
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Because of my girlfriend, I started up a TikTok page about being trans, and also a YouTube page
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She helped to promote that bravery in me and that confidence in being myself
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Hey, what's up, strangers? Today, we're going to be talking about if testosterone makes you gay
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Now, spoiler alert, it actually doesn't. Sharing about my experience being trans on social media, I've gotten so much backlash
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There is just a basic ignorance and assumptions that are made and misunderstandings
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which lead to people expressing their own opinions about it before educating themselves
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I've gotten the range from, oh, you're destroying your body with these chemicals to, oh, you're a girl
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You are extremely mentally ill. There's something very wrong with you. your parents did a really bad job at raising you
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it really doesn't faze me because at the end of the day they're just not happy with themselves
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and i hope they find peace negativity feeds off of negativity i'm here to spread positivity and
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realness it's really important for me to speak about my experience as a child because if your
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kid ends up being trans or if you are trans yourself or questioning it's so important to
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have another voice to listen to. No matter where you are in your journey just know that you're
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valid. I really hope that anybody seeing this understands that your identity is yours to own
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yours to express. There's no right or wrong way. My journey transitioning has certainly been a
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roller coaster. It was years and years of a process. It doesn't happen over a month or a year
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In the end, I still can't believe till this day that I made it where I am now
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and I couldn't be happier with how everything turned out
