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The air in my mother's bedroom hung
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heavy with the scent of sickness and the
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faint sickly sweet aroma of medicine.
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She was dying slowly, painfully from
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Her only comfort, her only respit from
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the agonizing pain came from opioid
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I remember the exact moment my world
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tilted on its axis. I walked into her
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room expecting to find her resting, but
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instead I found Jake, my brother. his
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hand hovering over her bed. "What are
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you doing?" I demanded, my voice a low
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growl. He froze, a deer caught in
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He denied it at first, stammering,
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trying to deflect. But I kept pressing,
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the anger a cold fire in my gut.
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Finally, the dam broke. "Fine, I'm
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stealing them," he blurted out, his
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voice laced with a strange mix of
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defiance and self-pity. "And guess what?
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I do it every night. Each time she goes
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to bed, I walk in, kiss her forehead,
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and say, "Good night, mommy." Then I
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reach under her bed and steal a few
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more. Is that what you wanted to hear
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to? But it wasn't just the theft. He had
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gone further, twisting the knife of
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betrayal. He'd convinced mom she was
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misplacing her patches, even helped her
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look for them, playing the concerned son
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while actively ensuring her suffering.
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"Why?" I asked, my voice barely a
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whisper. He looked at me, his eyes
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hollow. I'm selling them. I owe money to
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some really bad people. Then came the
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line that would forever echo in my
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nightmares. Mom will die anyway, so I
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may as well save my own life. It's what
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she would want. That was the moment I
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lost it. Rage erupted, hot and blinding.
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Pathetic, I roared. A coward, a
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disgusting excuse for a son. The door
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swung open, and my mother stood there,
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frail and impossibly small. Her face was
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etched with pain, the cancer claiming
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more of her with each passing day.
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I knew with a sickening certainty that
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the truth would crush her. She began to
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ask relentlessly what was happening. I
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stood silent, unable to deliver the
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blow, but her gaze hardened, demanding I
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tell her, my voice barely a whisper, I
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Jake is stealing your patches. He plans
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to sell them for money. the look on her
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face. I will never forget it. Tears
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welled in her eyes as she turned to
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Jake, who stood staring at the floor,
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utterly ashamed. "Is it true?" she
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whispered. He nodded, a barely
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perceptible dip of his head. He tried to
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explain himself, muttering about being
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in deep and scared, but I didn't know
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what he meant. "Deep in what?" I watched
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her heartbreak right in front of me.
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Tears streamed down her face as she
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shook her head slowly. The silence
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stretched, heavy and suffocating.
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Jake stood there looking like a little
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kid caught with his hand in the cookie
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jar. Finally, mom turned and walked back
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to the living room, but not before
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casting one last crushing look of
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disappointment at Jake. I was too angry
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to feel sorry for him. How could he do
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something like this? The next few days
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passed in a tense, awkward silence.
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When Jake and I spoke, our words were
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clipped, cold. My anger simmered, then
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began to boil as a new thought took
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root. There had to be more to this.
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Jake had always been a screw-up, but
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this felt like a new low, even for him.
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I had to dig to uncover the full extent
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Jake, ever the charmer, had always
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talked his way out of trouble. But charm
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has its limits. I started with the
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obvious. Where was he spending his time?
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I discovered he'd been frequenting a
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casino an hour away. At first, I assumed
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he was blowing off steam. Then I dug
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deeper. He wasn't just gambling. He was
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losing thousands of dollars. He owed
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money to people who haunted the casino's
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edges. Lone sharks, I guessed. I knew
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they wouldn't let him walk away if he
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didn't pay. Then the final sickening
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I checked mom's accounts. large
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unexplained lumpsums had been withdrawn.
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The recipient was starkly clear. My
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brother, he wasn't just stealing her
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pain medication. He was siphoning money
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from her dwindling savings to fund his
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addiction. Money she desperately needed
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for her own medical bills, for constant
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co-ayments that were slowly, surely
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draining her account now that she
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couldn't work. I had to confront him. I
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couldn't let him continue to get away
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I chose the kitchen late one night,
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knowing his habit of snacking. I
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cornered him as he made a sandwich. I
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laid out everything I knew, every sorted
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Jake froze, dropping the knife onto the
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counter with a clatter. For a second, I
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thought he'd deny it, spin another web
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But then all the fight went out of him.
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He confessed every last miserable
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detail. He apologized, said he never
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meant for it to get this bad. that he
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thought he could handle his addiction.
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"Now he didn't know what to do. "They'll
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end me if I don't get them their money
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by next month," he mumbled, slumping
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into a chair, burying his face in his
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hands. "I just stood there staring. I
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wanted to feel sorry for him, but I
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couldn't. Not after what he'd done to
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mom. You need to leave," I told him, my
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voice flat. "You can't stay here and
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keep stealing from mom." He didn't
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argue. He just nodded, defeated. He
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packed his things and left. For a
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fleeting moment, a small sense of relief
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washed over me. At least he wasn't here
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to cause any more trouble. But that
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relief was short-lived. Mom's health
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began to deteriorate rapidly. The cancer
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spread like wildfire, and the patches,
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her only shield against the pain, were
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no longer enough. She was in constant
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agony. It crushed me watching her suffer
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utterly helpless. She asked me to
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forgive Jake. I couldn't. Every time I
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thought about what he did, my blood
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boiled. I tried to focus on caring for
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her, but the anger was a constant
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maddening hum. A few days later, a noise
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late at night. Everyone should have been
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asleep. I crept out and there he was.
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Jake ransacking the house, stuffing
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electronics, valuables, anything he
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could get his hands on into a bag. After
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rumaging through my things, he turned to
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mom's jewelry, cash, anything. I saw
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Red. I grabbed him, yanked him away from
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the dresser. I yelled. He pleaded,
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begged for one more chance, claiming he
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needed the money that night or he'd be
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done for. I didn't care. I'm calling the
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police, I declared, reaching for my
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phone. He begged me not to, claiming his
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creditors would come for us if I did. I
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almost believed him, but I dialed
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anyway. Before I could hit call, Mom's
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voice echoed down the hall, weak but
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She stood there, barely upright, her
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face contorted in pain. Seeing her like
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that, knowing her suffering, something
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inside me snapped. I had to protect her.
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I dialed. The police came. They took
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Jake away, his face a mask of betrayal
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as they dragged him out. With Jake in
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jail, the house was quieter. But mom's
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condition worsened with each passing
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day. The doctor said there was nothing
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more they could do. I could see her
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hanging on by a thread, and all I could
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do was make her as comfortable as
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possible. One afternoon, as I sat by her
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bedside, she surprised me. She wanted to
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spend a day together, just the two of
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us. She looked surprisingly energetic.
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We revisited my favorite childhood
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spots, the old ice cream shop, the park
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where I used to play. For a moment, it
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was like I was 10 years old again,
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laughing with mom. Back home, settled in
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the living room. She took a deep breath.
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The doctors, she said, her voice thin.
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The cancer is more aggressive than they
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thought. I don't have much time left. My
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heart sank, the joy of our day
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She squeezed my hand. I need to ask you
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She wanted me to forgive Jake. She knew
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what he'd done, but she didn't want to
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leave this world with her sons at odds.
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She understood my anger, my hurt, but
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she pleaded with me for her sake to let
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go. It was her last wish. Then she asked
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me to forgive her. "For what?" I asked,
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bewildered, telling her she'd done
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nothing wrong. Tears welled in her eyes.
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I need to come clean about your father.
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Our dad left when I was five, Jake 3.
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I'd hated him ever since, never
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understanding why he abandoned us. My
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mother's confession shattered my
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understanding of our past. He didn't
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leave us because he didn't love us. He
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left because he had a gambling problem,
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just like Jake. I kicked him out to
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protect you from the people who were
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after him. "Why didn't you tell us?" I
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I didn't want you to feel like he had
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chosen his addiction over you," she
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said, her voice catching. "I didn't want
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you to worry. I thought if I kept it
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from you, you would grow up without the
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pain of him being there. She saw now."
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She admitted that she was wrong. The
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weight of her words settled over me.
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Jake, he was just following in our dad's
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footsteps, trapped in the same cycle.
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And mom all these years had tried to
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protect us from it. It was too late now.
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A few days later, mom's health took a
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final sharp turn. I rushed her to the
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hospital, but it was clear there was
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nothing more. She passed away
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peacefully, but the loss was unbearable.
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At her funeral, I stood, a raw wound of
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anger and sadness. Jake was led out of
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jail to attend. Seeing him, all the
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emotions I'd held back erupted.
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"I can't believe you did this to her," I
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You stole from our dying mother. He
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looked hollow, his eyes glossed over,
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mumbling apologies, saying he'd learned
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his lesson. I couldn't hear it. The pain
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I never want to see you again, I told
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him, turning my back and walking away.
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After the funeral, I cut Jake out of my
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Weeks turned into months. I tried to
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move on, but it wasn't easy.
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Mom's face. The look of pain and
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betrayal haunted me. I sought therapy,
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hoping to work through the anger. It
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helped a little, but a part of me
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couldn't let go. I couldn't forgive him.
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I kept thinking about mom's confession,
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Dad's addiction, her attempt to protect
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us. It didn't make Jake's actions any
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Jake tried to reach out from jail,
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sending letters. I read them, but I
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never responded. I knew he was sorry,
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but it didn't change what he'd done.
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Eventually, the letters stopped. One
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day, the warden called. Jake had been in
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a fight in the hospital. I sat there
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staring into nothing. Part of me wanted
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to rush to him to see if he was okay.
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The other part wanted to ignore it. In
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the end, I did nothing. Then, another
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letter from Jake. I almost threw it
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away, but something stopped me inside a
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single sheet of paper. I'm sorry. I love
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you. Please forgive me. I stared at the
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words, a lump in my throat. I folded the
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letter, put it in a drawer. It was time.
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Time to forgive Jake. Not for him, but
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for me. I grabbed a pen, a fresh sheet
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of paper. Dear Jake, I wrote. I got your
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letter. I've thought a lot about what
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you wrote and decided to forgive you.
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But this is the last time you'll ever
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hear from me. I need to move on with my
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life. And that means letting go of the
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past and letting go of you. I want you
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to know that I've forgiven you. And I
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think mom would want me to let it go.
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She asked me to forgive you. And even
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though it's taken me this long, I'm
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I hope you can find a way to move on,
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too. To live your life in a way that
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would make mom proud. I don't want
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anything to do with you anymore. But I
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want you to know you've been forgiven.
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I hope you can find some peace in that.
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Take care of yourself.
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I leaned back. A colossal weight lifted.
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I folded the letter, slipped it into an
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envelope, addressed it to Jake. As I
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sealed it, I knew this was the end of
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our road. I mailed the letter the next
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day. After that, I tried to keep Jake