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and i don't know you know why
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i chose to do it now i think it's mostly
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because um i just started
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eating mostly vegetarian again
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um i haven't had meat in a few days but
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who knows was the next time i might
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so today i was working on
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a project as well as um
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like self-worth basically when you focus
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on certain parts of yourself you're able
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remember or rethink things in a way that
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you've never looked at them before
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change how it affected you
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at that time basically a trauma
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was one thing that really came up strong
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abandonment was one of the first
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issues that came up and
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it actually made me think of like two
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majorly where i felt that way
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and even though i felt like i had moved
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out of and passed that
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um it just came up again
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recently in my life because of the
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people and the connections that i happen
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to be making right now
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same things feelings and emotions
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contribute partly but also connect the
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segway to the next part
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revelation if you want to call it that
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so you can imagine that when i received
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not saying or being my true self because
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that's the reason why i was getting
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punished in the first place
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probably once i start digging some more
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get to the root of like the very first
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when i felt like that um but i'm
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obviously not going to share that here
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is boundaries and dependency um
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specifically in the matter of uh
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being in situations where
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i'll have someone trying to create
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a pit in my heart or a pit
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in my stomach or a pit in my face
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depending on who you're
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asking about and it's specifically so
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i'm not a whole person anymore so that
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i have to beg them for some type of
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healing from them the problem is that i
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understand where my healing comes from
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so it always like if if it's a person
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that's trying to abuse me that way
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which again it has to do with boundaries
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people that go beyond my boundaries
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because again every single human being
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has boundaries like we're not
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a singular glob walking around on the
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earth and it should be kind of
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that every person has boundaries also
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and how that relates to boundaries so
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these are the major things that i've
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and that i plan on healing within myself
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all of my artwork all of my music
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and work is so various like my artwork
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permeates everything that i do it just
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manifests in different forms
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so if you stay tuned check out my stuff
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make sure you like my pages and stuff um
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i have a lot more to go through because
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chakras not to mention the one below
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your feet and the one above your head
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but who knows by the time i get to the
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in terms of speaking to everyone
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you never know what i'll be doing to be
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you tried to make me that part you
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didn't want to deal with
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you discarded me but you still got to
