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MEET Bonnie, one of the top earning spicy content creators in the industry. Bonnie made the ultimate statement by choosing to marry herself after years of bad luck in relationships and consistent infidelity from the men she was with. After marrying her ex in 2023 and paying a whopping £350k for the wedding in Lake Como, the couple broke up 9 months later after Bonnie found out he was cheating. Bonnie had sparked a new relationship and got a boyfriend within the year, who again, she found out was cheating on her. Now, to celebrate loving herself, Bonnie married herself on a beach in Ibiza in her old wedding gown. She treated herself to a brand new £25k yellow diamond ring, symbolising the sun in Ibiza and the brightness she brings to her own life. While Bonnie is adamant that this is her next step toward gaining power and freedom, she is also open to meeting someone. However, her roommate Charlotte has voiced concerns about whether the marriage will scare away potential future partners..
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I'm sick of men cheating, so I married myself
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I gave myself a ring because I can't divorce myself. It cost me £25,000
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When my story went viral online, I did get a lot of judgment
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God, she's vain. All for the views. I feel bad for her
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My friends and family were a little unsure to begin with. There was a bit of judgment and there was a bit of shame
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My housemate, Charlotte's opinion of me marrying myself at first wasn't great
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It's obviously very unconventional to marry yourself. It was quite hard for me to get my head around the idea and the concept
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Do you think this whole situation is going to prevent you meeting someone and marrying someone
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I'm Bonnie and I married myself. So I bought this ring online. I got it custom made
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It's a yellow diamond. It's three carats. It cost me £25,000. I got a yellow diamond because it represented the sun in Ibiza
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And it's also a little bit different because I've had an engagement ring before
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It's something I've wanted for a very long time. And I thought, why wait for somebody else to buy it for me when I could just buy it for myself
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The inspiration behind making the choice to marry myself was that I'd always abandoned myself in previous relationships
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And I wanted to make a promise to myself that I wasn't going to do that again
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My wedding dress, it was £15,000. Very, very expensive dress. and I have worn it before
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I wore it for my first wedding. I have been married before. We were together for 11 years
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We were married for nine months. The marriage broke down in a very awful way
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I found out that, you know, he hadn't been faithful to me throughout the whole relationship
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I didn't have a choice but to walk away. My last relationship ended
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the same reason my marriage ended, because of infidelity on their side, unfortunately
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Men cheat, so I thought, well why not marry myself I love that dress so much I was so excited to wear it and it gorgeous And then it had such a bad energy around that And I wanted to change the meaning of the dress
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So I was like, do you know what? I'm going to wear the same dress. Let's go get married, mate
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My wedding day was very, very special. It was a very intimate wedding
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I didn't invite many people. It was just my closest friends here in Ibiza. It was just so special
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It was magical. It was sunset and, you know, we popped a bottle of champagne and we had all the confetti
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It's the first time in my life where I haven't relied on somebody else to give me happiness or self-worth or reassurance or validation
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My original wedding, my first wedding, was in Lake Como. It cost me 350 grand
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Very, very expensive wedding. I didn't actually spend much money on my marriage this time because I didn't want it to be about materialistic things
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I do get judged for being a spicy content creator. There's a lot of judgment out there
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Making spicy content has changed my life massively. It's given me a life that I could
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have only dreamt of. The reaction from the fans have been mixed. There's some men that are like
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don't marry yourself, marry me. I did get a lot of judgment. There's some pretty nasty comments
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that I have received online. People thinking that I am crazy, that I'm mental, that I did it all for
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the press, someone here saying, God, she's vain, all for the views. I feel bad for her
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This is odd. There's a lot of trolls, but it won't be affecting me or my mental health
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My friends and family were a little unsure to begin with. You know, future relationships
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what's your future partner's going to think of you marrying yourself? Are you doing it because
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you haven't healed? Are you doing it because you're lonely? I felt like maybe a little bit
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embarrassed, like, oh, am I making the wrong choice here? And I have had to like deep that and think like why am I doing it You know what does it mean to me It did stem from heartbreak but actually it turned into something so beautiful and meaningful to me
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I don't mind people saying, oh, Bonnie's nuts. I don't mind people going, oh, she's crazy
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Like those sorts of comments literally don't bother me at all. Like people are going to dislike you and that's OK
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I also got a lot of support, especially from the women, from the females
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You know, they kind of understood where I was coming from. I've had a lot of positive feedback, actually
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When you understand, I think, my backstory and the reasons actually why I did it
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I think it makes complete sense. Charlotte is my housemate. I think Charlotte's opinion of me marrying myself at first wasn't great
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It's obviously very unconventional to marry yourself. I'm quite a traditional person when it comes to love
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and romance and marriage it was quite hard for me to get my head around the idea and the concept
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I'd really like to get to the bottom of the reasons behind this I know there are some
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but maybe there's some deeper reasons and meanings behind her marrying herself that
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she hasn't shared with me yet so obviously you've married yourself but are you open to falling in
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love again someday you want to find love again or is that it now you're committed to yourself and
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only you. I would love to be in love again and I love like falling in love is like the best feeling
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ever and I'm used to being in a committed relationship. Well you're not even on your own
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now because you've got yourself. Hello. I said in my vows I was already whole and I've just never
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felt like that. I'm ready to meet the love of my life. So what do you think is going to happen when
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you meet someone in the future? Do you think this whole situation is going to prevent you
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meeting someone and marrying someone are they going to find it weird? Are they going to want to
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be with you because you're already committed to yourself? I don't really understand
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how it works, what the situation's going to be. If I meet somebody and they don accept that I married myself I don want to be with them anyway If you don love the whole version of me then you don deserve me in the first place
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Okay, so obviously I have my own opinion and I do believe everyone should do whatever they want to do
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I think the judgmental comments you've got online are just ridiculous and people should just let you be
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Like, I personally wouldn't choose to marry myself. That's absolutely fine, I accept that. I like the tradition of marrying a partner
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Or so did I. I have my opinions on it, of course. But if you want to do that, you can do that
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If you haven't got anything nice to say, don't say it at all. Right, show us this ridiculous ring that you paid all this money for then
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But what's to say you're not going to meet someone who could buy you that ring in the future? Why would I put my hopes on that
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To expect someone to pay £25,000 for a ring is a bit ridiculous
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I wanted it for myself. I bought it for myself. I'm glad I've done it
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OK, so maybe in the future when you meet someone and they want to buy you a ring, what are you going to do with this one
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Are you going to recycle that as well as the dress? No. No? No
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I'm not recycling this. This will go on the other finger. I'll have two, mate
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I'll have two. I'll be blinged up, mate. I feel absolutely amazing when I'm wearing the veil and holding the flowers
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I feel like a million dollars. I wish I could do it every day. What I would say to any other women and men
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who are thinking about marrying themselves is absolutely do it. Self-marriage is amazing
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I'll never stop believing in love, even though I've been hurt many times and I believe that my love is out there
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If I had the opportunity to marry myself again, would I do it? Absolutely
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I would do it every day if I could. Thank you