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Darkness was my earliest
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companion my mother on her own and
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struggling often sent me to stay with
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different households where I felt like
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nothing more than an extra mouth to feed
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I remember leaning against chipped door
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frames wondering if I'd ever feel that
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elusive sense of belonging each new
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address came with a new set of unspoken
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rules a new hierarchy of children and a
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new environment where I'd have to learn
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again how to protect my heart kids can
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sense when they're out of place and I
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certainly did yet in all that upheaval I
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learned a howto for survival an
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instinctual step-by-step approach to
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personal resilience that shaped me so
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strongly I carried it into adulthood by
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the time I was seven I finally stayed
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with a family that provided a semblance
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of stability but just when I started to
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breathe easy my mother reappeared ready
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to take on her role at 14 I found myself
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living with a woman I barely knew and a
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new stepfather who argued with her
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constantly the tension was so thick it
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weighed on my chest wanting to escape I
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learned the best practices for emotional
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distance Vanishing for hours at a time
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especially when raised voices shook the
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walls little did I know these teenage
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experiments in withdrawal would set the
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stage for a lifetime Balancing Act
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between Solitude and togetherness once I
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finished high school I faced a stark
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reality College wasn't happening with
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without outside help so I joined the
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service confident I could Forge a path
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toward an engineering degree my
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Mechanical Aptitude flourished there
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honed by tough schedules and rigorous
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training if anyone told me I couldn't do
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something I'd plow through them my world
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view was that the strong Prosper the
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weak fall behind that laser focused
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mentality made me good at my job but
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left no real space for compassion when I
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finally exited service life I discovered
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commercial diving an adventurous blend
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of danger and curiosity it was The
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Ultimate Guide to testing my limits
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underwater the ocean became my
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professional playground I fused those
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mechanical skills with diving eventually
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climbing the ranks to become chief
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engineer on a research vessel operating
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on the Open Seas demanded constant
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problem solving a real behindth scenes
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glimpse of how unpredictable ocean
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conditions could be each expedition was
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a puzzle to crack and my spirit thriv D
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on the adrenaline rush of overcoming
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obstacles that job fit me like a glove
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the vessel's demands were high there was
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no official rule book for Missions and
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improvisation was key we faced unknown
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variables every day and I took pride in
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steering that chaos toward order
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commercial diving in the 1980s though
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wasn't the cautious profession it's
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become in the latest trends of Maritime
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safety back then many of my fellow
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divers suffered severe sometimes fatal
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accidents everything everything from the
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bendz to hearing loss private life
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insurance companies wanted nothing to do
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with us still we pressed forward
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enthralled by the viral hacks we were
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innovating in underwater robotics
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Salvage work and experimental
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techniques one fateful night in 1983 our
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vessel was evaluating a cuttingedge ROV
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remote operated vehicle off the coast of
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California when a vicious storm formed
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on the horizon we realized it would be a
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race against time to reach the harbor
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the Big Challenge lay at the mouth of
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that Harbor guarded by a daunting
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Breakwater that churned enormous waves
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during rough weather with strong winds
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howling and 25 to 30ft Breakers rolling
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in the captain decided to reduce
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prolonged costs by trying to get our
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smaller crew ashore quickly the plan
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deploy our rubber Zodiac boat a craft we
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relied on for retrieval operations even
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Seas at that moment I was sing L out to
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join a small team heading into Harbor
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normally I stayed on board to manage
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systems as the chief engineer but our
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skeleton crew didn't have enough hands
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familiar with the shoreline I was The
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Logical choice if a reluctant one we
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rummaged through the bosen's locker to
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find neglected orange life vests crusted
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in dust banged them clean and strapped
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them on it felt as if we were wearing
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pillow cases around our torsos still we
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zipped into that zodiac and tried to aim
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for the harbor with a radar bearing
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night swallowed us street lights on the
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distant Shore were no match for the
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swirling Darkness overhead waves like
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watery Hills formed all around forcing
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us to Crest a roller catch a glimpse of
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the harbor boy then will our boat to the
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next roller repeating this precarious
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dance over and over before we knew it
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we'd been blown an unexpected mile south
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unbeknownst to the entire crew suddenly
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we penetrated a breaker Zone of colossal
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waves one towering swell pitched the
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Zodiac forward with startling force and
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as soon as we hit the trough another
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massive wall of water slammed down our
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sturdy little craft folded like a
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sandwich and I unluckiest of all got
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catapulted overboard my instincts
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reminded me I was a trained diver keep
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calm I told myself but this was pure
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chaos imagine the Roar of an enraged
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ocean at night no Guiding Light No
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reference points tumbling underwater
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deprived me of any sense of up or down
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my chest burned as I clung to my last
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breath soon that inevitable moment came
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when I needed air so badly that Euphoria
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disguised the danger and I inhaled
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frigid saltwater I drowned then came
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silence the Roaring waves vanished in an
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instant I felt neither cold nor pain
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only a mesmerizing Stillness in complete
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darkness and something else an
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overwhelming sense I wasn't alone
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training had taught me about oxygen
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deprivation and the Illusions it can
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cause but this was beyond anything my
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instructors ever described curiosity
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tugged at me how could the most violent
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episode of My Life melt into a deep
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sense of Tranquility a pin prick of
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Radiance emerged the faintest glimmer in
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that void as it beckoned I noticed it
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was made of countless filaments of light
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all moving in Perfect Harmony like an
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enormous school of fish swimming in
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synchronous arcs the closer I drifted
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the more it felt like the very core of
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the Universe I glanced down at my own
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form somehow I too was dissolving into
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these luminous threads waves of
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extraordinary warmth embraced me an
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unconditional love that carried no
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demands or judgments it felt more honest
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than any human love I'd ever encountered
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I realized I was merging with this
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Cosmic Family of Brilliance an eternal
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kinship even though I couldn't place
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them from my Earthly life more radiant
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forms arrived greeting me like I'd been
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gone too long they communicated without
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words urging me toward a deeper realm it
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appeared to my perception as a vast
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spherical chamber and that's where I
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relived my entire life but not as a
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simple slideshow it was a total
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immersive re-experience from every
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perspective including the viewpoints of
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others I had interacted with their
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feelings their emotional states even the
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micro impacts of my words and actions
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were all laid bare my Consciousness
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splintered into multiple streams for
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those moments forcing me to see my life
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in shocking Clarity a struck and ashamed
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I realized how many things I'd done
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purely out of arrogance my Cosmic Family
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however offered only compassion gently
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sharing in my memories with empathetic
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understanding their unconditional
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presence inv veloped me never condemning
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me never turning away even the worst
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chapters of my life were met with with
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unwavering acceptance my heart felt both
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humbled and cherished when the review
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extended beyond the point of my drowning
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the clarity faded I became aware I was
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glimpsing future possibilities a
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Labyrinth of paths sprawled before me
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indicating the fluid nature of Destiny
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multiple directions multiple outcomes
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yet before I could fully understand this
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infinite complexity a collective
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resonant voice filled my awareness it
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was that same all-encompassing life
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speaking as an infinite chorus telling
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me it wasn't my time I had to go back
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and I adamantly refused why leave this
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horizonless love for a broken body
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drifting in a cold sea all that awaited
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me on the surface I thought was pain I
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stood my ground protesting with every
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fiber of my being but the absolute force
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of that luminous presence repeated its
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message there was purpose woven into my
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life and I had obligations yet to
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fulfill the moment I truly grasped the
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meaning of purpose that Cosmic
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injunction shivered through me like
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sonic waves suddenly I was hovering
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above my submerged form next to me
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hovered a few of those radiant
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companions as we watched my body churn
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in the tumultuous Waters a stray rope
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from the Zodiac's wreckage latched onto
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my arm dislocating my shoulder but also
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forcing my limp form toward the surface
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wave after wave bashed My Flesh against
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a partially inflated section of the boat
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pushing out some salt water from my
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lungs I sensed my soul family gently
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pressing me back into the body and like
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the snap of a rubber band a blinding
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torrent of sensation hit me the agony of
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re-entering a battered oxygen starved
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water logged body was immense if dying
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felt harsh coming back felt even harsher
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my throat choked on salt my lungs raged
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I could hear muffled shouts from my
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companions scanning the waves with
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flashlights in a frenzied attempt to
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find me my voice barely managed to rasp
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but they spotted me we regrouped around
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the floating wreckage confirming that
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everyone W has alive if badly shaken we
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still had nearly a mile to swim under
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those monstrous conditions wrestling and
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aching dislocated shoulder I accepted
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the help of a friend who stomped on my
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arm to pop it back in pain roared
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through my body but I was alive
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eventually we staggered onto the beach
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half dead from exertion yet
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extraordinarily lucky a adrenaline still
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coed through my veins but so did
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confusion people demanded to know how I
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had managed to hold my breath so long
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jokingly I said the ocean spat me back
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in my world death was taboo especially
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for commercial divers so I told no one
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about that other realm that
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unconditional love that sense of Soul
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family the memory scared me more than I
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cared to admit I stored The Experience
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away in a figurative box sealed with
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mental duct tape labeled not open and
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went on with life as if nothing had
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happened yet the lessons from My Life
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review wouldn't remain silent I could
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still recall my own behaviors my
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brashness my disregard for others
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feelings slowly I did my best to change
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the way I treated people in subtle ways
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I let those expert tips from my
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afterlife Panorama guide me treat others
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gently speak with empathy and try to
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harness the power of love for daily
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decisions but the deeper aspects meeting
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God reuniting with a family of light
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remained in locked storage I couldn't
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handle that part it felt too big too
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surreal in the years that followed two
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urgent questions burned in my mind first
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I wanted to regain Clarity on that
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purpose so forcefully mentioned second I
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wanted to ReDiscover the boundless love
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I'd tasted out there it's easy to become
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obsessed straining to find that
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Transcendent love in Earthly existence
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some people spiral into depression when
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they don't find it I too felt the ache
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for that Cosmic connection still I
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resisted the urge to throw my life away
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and Chase the Beyond recalling how
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precious time is here and how ephemeral
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it can be The Daily Grind overshadowed
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those spiritual inklings I dove deeper
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into The Busy World of mechanical
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systems and Hospital management a back
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problem crept up on me starting as a
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harmless ache but turning more menacing
12:29
my arm tingled with numbness I assumed
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it was just typing fatigue carpal tunnel
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from Advanced administrative tasks then
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in the middle of a routine day my spine
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felt like it snapped from within I
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staggered to an emergency department
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only to encounter a moment I recognized
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instantly from my near-death Life review
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a nurse walked in eyes brimming with
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tears Deja Vu struck me like lightning I
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remembered seeing this exact moment in
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that Cosmic preview I had once tried so
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hard to forget tests soon revealed I had
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stage four lung and bone cancer tumors
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had devoured parts of my vertebrae
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causing a terrifying collapse additional
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scans showed spots in my hip kidneys and
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even my brain the doctors gave me a
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painfully short prognosis encouraging me
13:19
to finalize my Affairs the recommended
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path forward was basically to manage
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pain and wait out the inevitable but
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something within me roared in Defiance
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I've seen the future that internal voice
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reminded me this is not how it ends
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while many questioned my sanity I drew
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on best practices from both conventional
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oncology and holistic medicine I clung
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to gratitude yes gratitude each day
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viewing my suffering as a teacher step
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by step keep going I told myself
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aligning with that unwavering love I
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once knew despite skepticism I found
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incredible Synergy between Medical
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treatments and mindful practices I
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considered it my own Ultimate Guide to
14:03
Healing a behindth scenes custom
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strategy blending Hospital Technology
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with the intangible essence of spiritual
14:10
resilience in just 6 months though it
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seemed an eternity I stunned my entire
14:16
care team by reaching a cancer-free
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state friends and colleagues called it a
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miracle for me it was part of that
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Destiny the light had revealed gratitude
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became the Cornerstone of my new life
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whenever adversity reared its head I
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tried to respond with genuine
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appreciation not because adversity is
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fun but because it can bring Clarity a
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consistent gratitude practice can
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dismantle fear providing that Stillness
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from which you can see the Practical
14:45
steps forward that near-death experience
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so profoundly real electrified my
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Outlook on everyday existence the memory
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of tapping into multiple perspectives
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during the Life review made me realize
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that none of us are isolated we are all
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connected to the cosmic tapestry in ways
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we barely sense being here on Earth
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isolated by the limitations of a
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physical body at times feels like Living
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in a Dream yet when we step into that
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luminous realm we return to our totality
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it's as if only a fraction of our true
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spiritual Essence inhabits our bodies
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while the greater portion awaits our
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reunion Beyond this plane today I see
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Life as a wondrous Adventure suffering
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ing though painful can generate
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transformation even if it's a single
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Moment of clarity it can change the
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entire trajectory of your life that's
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why easy methods for heart-c centered
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self-reflection or top 10 strategies for
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practicing daily mindfulness can be so
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pivotal if they help even one person see
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beyond their immediate trials knowing we
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co-create each moment with the world
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around us we can reclaim power over how
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we respond to crisis and though that
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immeasurable light still calls me I
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honor the blessing of being here
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breathing air feeling the sun on my face
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hearing the laughter of friends I
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believe we have a responsibility to
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nurture our gifts and share them because
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we never know what deeper plans might
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unfold through our Cooperative
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existence yes I anticipate the day I
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return to that realm of expansive love
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where self-doubt fear and pain evaporate
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but until that time I'm fully present
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here in engaging with each new chapter
16:30
with open-minded curiosity and a humbler
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heart perhaps that is the real trending
16:36
now mindset living with purpose offering
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compassion freely and never forgetting
16:41
how much each small act reverberates in
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The Grand Design of creation true
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belonging I've learned doesn't lie in
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any single household or fleeting
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achievement it resides in our
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willingness to keep our Spirits open and
16:55
our actions sincere so whenever storms
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close in and the waves threaten to drag
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me below I think of that silent glow
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that abiding sense of being cherished by
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an ineffable Source I remember the
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watery Darkness the Luminous Radiance
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that welcomed me and the hush that
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followed my last breath that memory
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urges me to embrace life's
17:17
unpredictability knowing that within
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every challenge there might be an
17:20
invitation to step closer to the light
17:22
we carry within the Adventure Continues
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wave after wave heartbreak after
17:28
heartbreak Triumph after Triumph and in
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each surge of the tide I sense that
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underlying love guiding me home but not
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before I fully walked this path it's my
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heartfelt wish that others too discover
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the expert tips embedded in their own
17:43
hardships one might une Earth lessons of
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patience another might realize the
17:47
beauty of surrender while someone else
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finds Unstoppable courage our stories
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differ but the Resonance of growth the
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Synergy of connected Souls is universal
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if if there's one Ultimate Guide to this
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existence it's that none of us Walk
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Alone we're all part of something
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immense and wondrous weaving together
18:07
each Ripple of kindness thought and
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choice into a collective tapestry in the
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end no matter how large the breakers or
18:14
how dark the night we can stand on the
18:17
shore soaked to the bone yet steadfast
18:20
with hearts that are open and ready we
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can meet every storm with alertness
18:24
curiosity and maybe even a bit of Wonder
18:28
Because deep in side the current that
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carries us also nurtures us urging us to
18:32
remember who we truly are sparks of
18:35
light United in a vast ocean of