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I'm out of here, I yelled, the words a
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grenade I'd been holding on to for too
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long. Fine, Jenna, my wife, shot back,
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her voice a razor's edge. Don't bother
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coming back. In our 14 years of
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marriage, we'd had a hundred such
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fights, a thousand such parting shots.
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Normally, I would have thrown a go to
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hell over my shoulder as I stormed out.
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But today, I chose a different path. I
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She wouldn't understand now, but she
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This was the last time. I wasn't coming
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back. For the past 6 months, Jenna had
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become a verbal wrecking ball. Her
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words, sharp and cruel, chipped away at
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me, leaving me feeling hollowed out. I
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couldn't understand the sudden shift.
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To avoid the constant fights, I started
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staying away. I'd linger in my car after
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work or go for a long drive, sometimes
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not coming home until after Jenna and
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our daughter Carrie had finished supper.
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I needed to take care of myself to find
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But lately, even the sanctuary of a late
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night meal was gone. The leftovers I'd
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grown to depend on were mysteriously
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absent. My name is Kurt Kaminsky. David
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Kurt Kaminsky, technically, but my
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father is also David, so everyone called
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me Kurt to avoid confusion. I'm a
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Kaminsky, which in our small town makes
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me a pole. I've heard all the jokes, but
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the one about being dumb, about being
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clueless, was the one that would haunt
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me. My wife, my soon-to-be ex-wife, was
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not who I thought she was.
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I only realized the full extent of this
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a month ago. One Monday evening, after a
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particularly draining day of avoiding
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Jenna's barbs, I found myself in a
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diner, sitting alone in a booth. The two
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men in the next booth were deep in
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conversation. "How long have you been
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with the poles, Mrs.?" one asked, his
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voice low but clear. "Since they tied
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the knot," the second voice replied.
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"And then my world froze. It was George,
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my best friend, the man who stood by me
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at the altar, my mechanic." The words
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that followed were a blur. I couldn't
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hear, couldn't breathe. Then George's
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voice cut through the static in my head.
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Yeah, we rendevous at least twice a
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month. Curt's so clueless he's none the
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wiser. Dumb luck. A waitress came to
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take my order and I mumbled, "Sorry,
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I've got to go." before bolting out the
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door. A cold, sick feeling rising in my
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The guy who I'd helped through high
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school, the man I trusted with my
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business, the man who was a part of our
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family, the betrayal was too deep, too
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sickening to comprehend.
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I drove aimlessly, the words replaying
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in my mind. Was it a lie? Was George
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just boasting to impress some stranger?
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I couldn't know for sure, but Jenna's
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recent behavior, the sudden cruelty,
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suggested something was a miss. I
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decided to get my own evidence. That
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night, after Jenna had fallen asleep, I
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went through her phone and email. The
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email was clean. Her phone was locked,
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but I quickly figured out the password.
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Our daughter's birth date. I found some
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sketchy messages, but nothing from
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George. I almost convinced myself it was
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all a big misunderstanding. George was
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just a talker. But the next day at the
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dealership, when George made his usual
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Polish joke, something in me snapped.
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George, what do you even know about
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Poland? I spat, the anger bubbling over.
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I bet you couldn't find it on a map if
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your life depended on it. You joke about
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polls being dim, but I'm sure they could
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locate the US, maybe even our state. Now
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get to work. He stared at me, his face
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blank with surprise. He knew. He knew I
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was on to something. I retreated to my
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office, locking the door behind me. I
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needed a plan. I called a private
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investigator. He suggested a tracking
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program for her phone. Consider it a
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freebie, he said. Everything I told you
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I took his advice. That night, after
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everyone was asleep, I installed the app
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on her phone, syncing it with mine.
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I finally slept soundly. The next day,
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the app showed her going to the
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university where she worked part-time,
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then to the grocery store, then home.
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Nothing unusual, nothing with George.
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I tried to be civil to her that evening,
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suggesting we go out for dinner. To my
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surprise, she agreed.
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During dinner, I casually brought up
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George. She shifted uncomfortably,
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swiftly, changing the subject. My
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suspicions deepened. That night, as we
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lay in bed, she nestled against me. "You
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might be in luck tonight," she
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whispered. I felt a wave of conflict.
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"Could I be intimate with a woman who
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might be cheating on me?"
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I decided to let her take the lead. We
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made love, but it felt hollow, detached.
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The week passed with no signs of
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infidelity. I was on the verge of
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believing George had been lying. Then,
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one sleepless night at 2:00 a.m., I sat
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on the couch with a glass of whiskey,
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holding her phone. The password, our
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daughter's birth date, clicked in my
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mind. Carrie was a wedding night baby
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born exactly 9 months after our wedding.
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Her pregnancy had been difficult, a
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constant battle with my wife's RH
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We almost lost her. The thought hit me
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like a bolt of lightning. If George's
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claims were true, if he and Jenna had
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been intimate for years, then there was
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a strong chance he was the father, not
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me. The next day, I took a swab from
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Car's cheek and one from my own and
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brought them to a genetics department at
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a local university. The department head,
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a friendly man who appreciated the car
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dealer discount I offered him, promised
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to have the results soon.
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The weight was torture. The future of my
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family, the truth of my life, hung in
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the balance. The next two days were a
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blur of nervous energy. I kept busy with
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work, making plans to expand the
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business, to buy new cars at an auction.
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It was a distraction, a way to keep from
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thinking about the life that was likely
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crumbling around me. I even made plans
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to pay off our mortgage, a preemptive
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strike in the war that was coming. The
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call came late Wednesday evening. The
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department head, his voice somber, asked
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me to come to his office. I knew before
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he even said a word. The samples aren't
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related, he said, handing me the
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envelope. The news, expected yet
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devastating, hit me with the force of a
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tidal wave. My daughter, the child I had
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loved and raised for 13 years, was not
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mine. The marriage, the love, the life,
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it was all a lie. I called a family
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lawyer and made an appointment for the
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next day. I drove to Albuquerque. My
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mind a storm of anger and betrayal. I
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couldn't go home. I couldn't face her. I
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needed to be alone. The next day was a
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blur of car auctions and legal meetings.
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I learned that in the eyes of the law,
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she could take half of my business, my
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assets, and I'd be forced to pay child
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support for a child that wasn't mine.
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I was furious. I decided right there and
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then that I wouldn't let her win. I
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would not divorce her. Instead, I would
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leave paying the mortgage and taxes so
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she couldn't claim the house. I would
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sell my business to myself, creating a
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new corporation to protect it from her
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legal grasp. I would leave her and
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George to face the consequences.
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The day after I returned home, I put my
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plan into motion. I sold my business to
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a new corporation, of which I was the
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sole shareholder, and renamed it
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Helpless Car. The name was a subtle,
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cruel joke for George and Jenna. He came
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to my office expecting to be put to work
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on the new cars, but I told him I had
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sold the business. The look on his face,
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a mix of confusion and fear, was a small
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victory. Later, as I was driving away in
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my new red Miata, I saw Jenna and Carrie
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staring out the window. "Why do you need
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this car, honey?" Jenna asked, a
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patronizing tone in her voice. "We need
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something with a back seat for Carrie."
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"No, Dad," Carrie chimed in. a
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teenager's bluntness, a sharp jab to the
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heart. I'm already teased enough because
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of my last name. I don't want to be seen
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with a Polish used car salesman.
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I drove off, the words stinging. The
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disrespect, the casual cruelty, it all
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stemmed from Jenna. She had corrupted
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our daughter, taught her to be ashamed
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of who we were. That night, as she stood
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over me in bed, a harsh light in her
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hand, she asked, "Are you sulking?
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You're not just a pole, you're childish.
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The words, so reminiscent of George's
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jabs, were the final straw.
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Looks like you and your daughter would
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rather do without a pole around, I said,
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my voice cold and hard. So, you might as
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well just leave. The next morning, I
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delivered the final blow. I called her
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at her office. Kurt, she said, her voice
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tentative. What's going on? Nothing
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much, I said, my voice flat. just
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heading to Albuquerque to pick up the
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car. "So, what I heard must not be
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true," she said, a flicker of hope in
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her voice. "George called and said you
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sold the business." "I don't know," I
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said, a cruel grin on my face. "What did
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you hear?" "George called and said you
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sold the business," she repeated, the
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fear in her voice growing. "You didn't
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really sell it, did you? You wouldn't do
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that to us. What about the car I have?
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What about the kids? I don't know what
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you're talking about, I said, the lie a
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cold, hard stone in my mouth. I have to
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go. I have a lot to do. I hung up, the
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sound of her frantic voice, a final
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hollow echo. I had won. I had not left
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her, but she had lost me. And soon she
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would lose everything