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I didn't know he was looking at me how
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could I it was a warm evening the kind
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of evening when the weight of the day
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clings to your skin and you long for the
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water my husband Henry was away at War
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fighting for the country and the house
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him the courtyard was my refuge a quiet
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place where I could unwind and cleanse
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myself under the soft glow of the
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Setting Sun I thought was alone my days
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were usually full of routine and
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reflection my marriage to Henry was one
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of mutual respect and care though he was
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often away at War his letters spoke of
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hope I always admired his courage and
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loyalty even as I yearned for his
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presence my family background was modest
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but rich in Tradition and I carried the
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values my parents instilled in
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me the evening spent in the courtyard
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brought back memories of my childhood
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home where my mother would hum songs
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water Henry was an army officer for the
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general far away his days were a mix of
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survival the camaraderie among soldiers
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was his only solace in a harsh
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environment he often thought of me my
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laughter and the way I tended to our
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home the war was unforgiving but it gave
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purpose he believed that his sacrifices
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ensured the safety of his family and the
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country his trust in the general was
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unwavering and he took pride in serving
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admired the General's eyes fell upon me
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by chance but the image lingered the
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pressures of kingship often left him
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Restless he found himself drawn to the
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Simplicity and beauty of my presence a
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stark contrast to the complexities of
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Army his inner turmoil began to grow a
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battle between his responsibilities and
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desires he rationalized his actions
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convincing himself that a moment of
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personal happiness would not disrupt the
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country I began my evening routine The
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Familiar ritual of drawing water and
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bathing under the Open
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Sky the cour guard was shielded from the
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streets a private space where I felt
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safe the water trickled over my skin and
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for a brief moment the worries of the
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faded but somewhere unseen by me a pair
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of eyes watched the next day a soldier
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came to my door he was one of the
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general soldiers dressed in fine robes
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and his presence immediately filled me
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unease the general request your presence
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he said his tone formal but
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unyielding when I arrived the general
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greeted me warm warmly his demeanor was
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kind even gentle but there was something
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in his eyes that made me feel vulnerable
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he asked me to sit his voice soft and
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reassuring I've heard much about you
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Henry is a brave man one of my finest
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soldiers he said his words lingering on
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name I nodded unsure of how to
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respond thank you my Lord he is a good
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man the General's gaze lingered on me
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and I felt a flush rise to my
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cheeks he spoke of the war of Henry's
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courage and of the country's
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struggles his words were eloquent but
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beneath them I sensed something more a
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hidden intention I couldn't quite
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place the General's house was a world of
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its own filled with Whispers and
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secrets as I visited I became aware of
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the subtle Dynamics among the
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courtiers some envied my sudden
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closeness to the king While others
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curiosity among them was Abigail one of
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the General's wives who often offered
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cryptic advice veiled in
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kindness that evening I left the
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General's house feeling
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unsettled the general had been kind even
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Charming but there was a weight to his
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words that I couldn't shake I told
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myself I was overthinking it he was the
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King after all a a man of great
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power surely his interest in me was only
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Henry but then a few days later another
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came this time the summons felt less
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like an invitation and more like a
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command I returned to the General's
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house my heart heavy with
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uncertainty when I saw the general again
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different he was no longer the gracious
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King speaking of his sold
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bravery he was a man consumed by
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name you are beautiful he said his voice
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low and intimate I froze the words hung
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undeniable I didn't know how to
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respond he stepped closer his presence
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overwhelming and before I could think or
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speak the lines between what was right
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and what was inevitable blurred that
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night changed everything everything I
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returned home my mind a storm of
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confusion and guilt I told myself it was
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a mistake a moment of weakness that
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would pass but weeks later I realized
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pregnant Panic gripped me Henry had been
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away for months there was no way to hide
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this I sent word to the general hoping
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he would know what to do surely as the
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king he could protect me when when his
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response came I was both relieved and
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terrified he had summoned Henry back
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from the battlefield for a brief moment
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I thought everything would be fine Henry
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would return and the truth would remain
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hidden but Henry was a man of integrity
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and even when the general encouraged him
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refused how can I lie with my wife while
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my comrades are in the field he said his
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words though Noble felt like a knife to
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heart I couldn't tell him the truth and
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silent when Henry returned to the
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battlefield I thought the matter was
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resolved but then the news came Henry
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was dead the grief hit me like a wave
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under I wept for him for the man I had
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lost but even in my mourning I couldn't
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escape the shadow of what had happened
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the general brought me to his house made
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me his wife and for a time I tried to
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find solace in my new life but the
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weight of guilt and loss was too heavy
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Bear when our child was born I hoped it
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would bring healing but instead it
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tragedy the baby fell ill and no amount
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of prayers could save
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him his death felt like a punishment not
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just for the general and me but for
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everything that had led us to dis Point
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Pastor Moses came to the general house
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shortly after he told the general a
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story about a rich man who took a poor
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lamb I watched as the General's anger
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grew as he declared that the man in the
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die and then Pastor Moses said the words
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that changed everything you are the
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man the general was broken by Pastor
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Moses's rebuke and though he repented
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the damage was done our lives would
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never be the same the consequences of
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our actions rippled through the country
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through our family and through our
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hearts even now as I sit in the quiet of
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the general house I think back to that
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evening in the courtyard I didn't know
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he was watching me I didn't know that a
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single moment could lead to so much
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pain but I also didn't know how deep
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reach through the loss through the shame
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and through the Brokenness I've learned
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that Redemption is never Beyond his
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reach though my life has been marked by
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choices I cannot undo I hold on to the
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hope that even in our darkest moments we
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are not beyond the light
