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Have you ever felt like you’re failing at something you’re passionate about? In this video, I share my journey on YouTube—the challenges, the slow growth, and the hard truth about chasing dreams when the results don’t match the effort.
But this isn’t just about YouTube metrics. It’s about rediscovering my love for writing, facing my fear of failure, and finding meaning in the process of creating—even when it’s hard.
I want to encourage you to keep pursuing what matters to you, no matter how small the numbers might seem. Don’t let the pressure of instant results take away the joy and value of your journey. Whether it’s starting a creative project, working on personal growth, or chasing a dream, remember that progress is still progress—even if it’s slow.
Let’s talk about redefining success, staying motivated, and embracing failure as part of the process. 💡
Chapters:
Intro
Why I’m Sharing This Story
The Challenges of Creating on YouTube
Rediscovering My Passion for Writing
The Power of Small Numbers
Encouragement for Your Journey
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[Disclaimer: The information provided in this video is for educational purposes only and should not replace professional medical advice.]
I'm Rushana, I have a Medical Degree and a Master's in Public Health. But more importantly, I have an unwavering desire to help you live a healthier, more fulfilled life.
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it's fair to say that I'm failing
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miserably at this whole YouTube thing
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two years in over 80 videos later and my
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numbers are far from impressive my
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subscriber count is just over
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550 and I'm miles away from the enviable
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monetization target of 1,000 subscribers
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and 4,000 watch hours actually I'm
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technically doing worse than I was
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earlier in 2024 because I could vividly
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remember having a around 2,400 watch
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hours a few months ago compared to the
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mere 1,600 watch hours I have now and
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don't even get me started on the fact
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that I only gained one uno mas
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subscriber in the last 28 days if I only
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start to think about the amount of hours
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I spend scripting filming and editing
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one video to get a handful of views I
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would be left speechless
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and I don't think I even have to mention
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that so far I made exactly Zer actually
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it's negative dollars if I consider the
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time and resources I invest in all this
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so yeah I'll be the first to admit that
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these metrics are horrible they're
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depressing so why do I continue I
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already have a full-time job I'm a wife
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a mom I have so much that fills my day
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why do I continue to create these videos
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when quite frankly it seems seems like a
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complete waste of time well the answer
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is quite simple actually I truly believe
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in the message I'm sharing I'm
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passionate about all things wellness and
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self-improvement and I won't let the
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numbers distract me from the value that
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I think that I'm creating each video is
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a chance to reach someone to inspire
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someone even if it's just one person at
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a time and maybe that one person will
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pass the message along creating ripples
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I may never actually see let me be clear
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I want to create value for others but of
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course I have my own selfish intentions
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as well creating these videos has been
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just as valuable for me when I make a
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video it's not just about delivering
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surface level information I challenge
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myself to think deeply to research to
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learn and then refine my message as I
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film through this process I end up
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learning so much not only about the
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topic but about myself plus regardless
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of what these numbers say I know deep
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down that my videos are improving they
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may not be great but they are better and
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sometimes better is good enough recently
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I rewatched one of my earliest videos
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and I was struck by how much I improved
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not only in my delivery and confidence
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but in my willingness to keep showing up
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even when success feels Out Of Reach
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I'm facing my fear of failure pushing
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myself to learn new skills and embracing
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imperfection it reminding me of this
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quote by James Clear success is the
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product of daily habits not once in a
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lifetime transformation have you ever
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thought about success that way do you
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give yourself credit for showing up even
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when the outcome isn't perfect if
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nothing else at least I am getting a
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free lesson on grit which is apparently
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more important than talent and
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intelligence great is that sustained
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passion and perseverance is that quiet
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determination to keep going I'm sure
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you've heard the quote by Bill Gates
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most people overestimate what they can
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do in one year and underestimate what
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they can do in 10 years it's such a
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powerful reminder isn't it in a world
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where we often crave instant results it
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can be easy to feel discouraged when
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progress doesn't come as quickly as we
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like but what if we looked at our goals
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with the patience and dedication of a
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10-year Vision what do you think could
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change in your life if you gave yourself
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the grace of time if you trusted the
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small consistent actions to add up
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rather than expecting an immediate
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breakthrough we often Overlook the value
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of the journey itself but what it it is
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the process that is actually shaping us
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how would your health improve if you
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commit to showing up for yourself in
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small ways for 10 years how would your
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relationships deepen if you nurtured
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them consistently with love and
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attention year after your year for 10
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years in church last Sunday the pastor
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mentioned that the church is an 800 Pew
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Sanctuary yet on most Sundays we only
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have about 30 to 40 persons there and
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although that may be a fact I'm thinking
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about how transformative these church
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services have been for me how much value
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and meaning they add to my life perhaps
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even more than the larger congregations
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I've attended what if this pastor
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decided that these 30 persons are not
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worth his time and effort what if he
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decided that because the numbers weren't
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what he envisioned his message didn't
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matter he would miss the opportunity to
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perform impact the lives of these 30
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people including me the same applies to
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anything you do in life don't let the
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numbers derail you from the value you're
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creating whether it's a tiny book club
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or a handful of close friends you
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encourage those small numbers matter
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each person each interaction matters let
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me be candid with you for a minute
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creating these YouTube videos is hard
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and the results can be extremely
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demotivating it could easily become
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toxic especially if you aren't careful
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about your mindset and priorities so
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although I've decided to keep creating
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these YouTube videos because of all the
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collateral benefits I'm doing so on my
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own terms even if it means growing more
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slowly I want to keep YouTube as a space
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for growth not a source of stress I'm
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choosing an approach that's less
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overwhelming and one that respects my
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bigger priorities spirituality family
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career and personal Wellness for one I
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simply can't commit to a rigid schedule
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right now trust me I really want to and
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I'll try my best to post as often as I
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can there's just too much on my plate
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sometimes and you know what at times I
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need to go slow so that I don't end up
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stopping altogether some people thrive
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with strict timelines to keep themselves
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moving forward but for me it often
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backfires I tend to set overly ambitious
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deadlines and then end up being really
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really hard on myself when I fall short
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instead I've learned that a more
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flexible approach works better for me
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for now at least it allows me to stay
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motivated without adding unnecessary
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stress even as you try to achieve your
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goals I want to encourage you to define
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success on your own terms it's easy to
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feel pressured to do more to get ahead
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but at what cost your mental health your
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time your joy
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that's too high a price to pay pursue
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your goals with passion yes but also
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with balance patience and Grace my
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second criteria is that I won't be
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niching down even further because I
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simply don't want to talk about one
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topic over and over again I refuse to do
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that I don't want to be Ted to yet
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another boss aka the YouTube algorithm I
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have more than enough bosses have you
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ever found yourself so wrapped up in a
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che leaving something that has started
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to drain you instead of inspiring you
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often holding on to tightly can stifled
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creativity growth and happiness for some
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of my goals in the past I had an All or
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Nothing approach if I couldn't give
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something my full attention or effort
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I'd convince myself to not do it at all
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but there's something uniquely
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satisfying about working on a project
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that's mine where I can set the
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direction and the pace have you ever
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felt that sense of fulfillment from
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pouring your heart into something
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personal that feeling of building
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something that pushes you to work harder
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creating videos has done that for me and
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unexpectedly it's also reconnected me to
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a passion I thought I'd Left Behind
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writing as a child writing was my safe
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space it was how I processed emotions
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made sense of the world and ped my voice
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I was that kid talked away in a corner
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scribbling poems and stories this is one
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of the books I would write in I've had
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this one since 1999 that's almost 26
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years for years my love for writing was
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buried under the responsibilities of
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career and family rediscovering writing
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through blogging and creating videos has
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been like finding a piece of myself I
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didn't realize was missing it's not just
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about the words it's about the joy and
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Pur purpose that come from creating
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something from nothing and that's why I
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want to encourage you don't just consume
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create create in whatever way feels
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meaningful for you whether it's writing
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painting gardening cooking or something
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entirely different there's something
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transformative about creating something
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from nothing there's a quote by Maya
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Angelo that I love there's no greater
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Agony than bearing an Untold Story
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inside you so what's your untold story
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is there a passion you've left behind
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waiting to be
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rediscovered sometimes the things that
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bring us the most Joy are the very
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things we set aside maybe it's time to
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pick them back up again I truly believe
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that I will look back on these very
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years and see them as the foundation of
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something greater either way the skills
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the insights and self-awareness I've
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gained are invaluable and there the
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reasons why I keep showing up camera on
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ready to share whatever I can if this
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resonates with you maybe you'll
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subscribe and keep watching after all I
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might be here for 10 years Jokes Aside
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I'm here for the Long Haul growing at my
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own pace and learning as I go because by
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my standards I am succeeding and that's
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a win I'm proud to claim
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