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The photograph was a slap in the face.
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It wasn't a blurry, clandestine shot
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from a distance, but a close-up, damning
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portrait of my wife, Tracy, and a man I
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Her head was tilted back, a smile on her
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face as his lips met hers. He held her
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with an ease that suggested this wasn't
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a first. "Where did you get that?" she
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asked, her voice sharp with shock. My
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laughter was a bitter, hollow sound.
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"Really? I show you this and that's your
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first question. Does it matter? Does it
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change the fact that you cheated on me?
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She snatched the photo from my hand, her
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eyes darting across the image as if
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looking for an escape hatch. It looks
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bad. I admit we kissed, but it's not
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cheating, she argued, her voice
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regaining a shaky composure. We were in
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full view of others. So that's your
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defense? I retorted, my voice tight with
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disbelief. No explanation of who he is.
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No hint of remorse. You think because
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you're not having sex, it's fine. Is
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that your idea of keeping our vows?
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Brian, I see you're upset, she said,
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trying to adopt a calm, rational tone.
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We were just caught off guard. Making a
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big deal out of this won't help. Won't
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help, I echoed, the words of burning
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coal in my throat. You haven't even
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Why should I get upset over someone I
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don't know? Does his name matter? She
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countered a flicker of fear in her eyes.
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You might do something stupid like pick
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a fight and he'll punch you. I won't let
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that happen. My heart, already a
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shattered mess, froze over. "Thanks for
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your honesty," I said, my voice
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dangerously calm. "You've made your
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choice. Now I'll make mine." I turned
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and ran upstairs. The sound of my shoes
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on the hardwood floor, a frantic echo of
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my turmoil. She followed me, the fear in
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her eyes replaced by a confused
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"What are you doing?" she asked as I
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began to pull clothes from the closet
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and cram them into a suitcase.
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"Packing?" I said curtly. "But why? I
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can't take your lies and deceit," I
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growled, the rage finally threatening to
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I need to leave before I do something I
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She tried to laugh, a desperate hollow
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sound. Don't be silly, Brian. You
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wouldn't slap me. Until today, I thought
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you'd never cheat on me, I shot back,
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the words a fresh wound. I guess we
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don't know each other.
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Cheating? Who said I cheated? Kissing
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him wasn't cheating, she shouted, the
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volume finally matching the chaos in her
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Then what do you call this? I held out
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another photo, a second piece of
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evidence I had been saving. This one was
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of her laughing and the man, Elliot,
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with his hand on her lower back, his
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fingers tracing the curve of her waist.
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It was an intimate, possessive gesture.
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The photo was a dagger and she crumbled.
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"Where, how?" she stammered, her face
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ashen. "Does it matter? Does knowing
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change the fact that you cheated and
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She dropped the pictures, her body
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convulsing with sobs as she reached for
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me. Stay away, Tracy. The word traitor
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hung in the air between us. I gave you a
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chance to be honest, but you didn't
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think I was worth the truth. For Bobby's
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sake, I could have stayed to discuss
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this, but you demand too much. I'll take
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my phone. Only call for emergencies with
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Bobby or I'll block you. Clear?"
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She nodded and I walked out of the life
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we had built together, leaving behind
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the pieces of my broken heart. I spent
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the weekend in a motel. The sterile
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white walls and the suffocating silence,
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a stark contrast to the life I had left
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Loneliness, an unbearable weight,
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settled on me. I cried until I passed
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out. By Saturday, the messages began to
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pour in. They were from our friends, her
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co-workers, whom she had already told
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about our problems. painting herself as
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the victim. Cassidy, her best friend,
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urged me to meet the group at her house.
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I knew it was a trap. I suggested Angus
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Steakhouse instead, a public place where
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I could leave at a moment's notice. They
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reluctantly agreed. I arrived at the
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restaurant to find them already seated
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in a private room. There was only one
4:35
seat left next to Tracy. "If you don't
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mind," I said, my voice flat. I'd prefer
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to sit at the far end of the table away
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from her. If not, I can sit at another
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table. Cassidy, ever the ring leader,
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Of course, Brian. Jared, please give
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Brian a seat at the end of the table.
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Before they could begin their rehearsed
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dialogue, I handed out copies of the
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You all seem very interested in Tracy
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and me settling our differences, I said,
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my voice calm but firm.
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I was shocked she shared our personal
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matters before we had a chance to
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discuss them ourselves.
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This shows her continued disrespect for
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me and our marriage. Before any
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discussion begins, I want an answer.
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Look closely at this picture. Do you see
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that man Tracy refuses to name? I'm sure
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at least one of you knows who he is. If
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you want to help, I need information.
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If no one can be honest and provide the
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facts, then we have nothing more to
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discuss. The silence was deafening. Even
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Cassidy, for all her bluster, had no
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answer. My question had blindsided them,
5:45
exposed their duplicity.
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"Thank you for your time," I said,
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standing up. "I hope someone is hungry
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enough to eat my steak. I've lost my
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appetite. No one here seems interested
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in helping us repair our relationship."
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I left, ignoring Tracy's desperate
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pleas. I moved into the spare bedroom,
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locking the door and sealing myself off
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from her. The only contact we had was
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through Bobby. A week later, I came home
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to find them all there again. Tracy's
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friends and Elliot, the man from the
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photograph with his wife, Gail.
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Tracy, in a moment of delusional
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honesty, had finally given me his name.
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"Brian, meet Elliot Franklin," she said,
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her voice trembling. "We all decided
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this was the best way to tell you. If
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you try to attack him, the guys here
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will intervene. I looked at Elliot, a
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smug, handsome man, and a cold rage
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settled in me. You've shown me his face,
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I said, my voice dangerously soft. It's
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a bit late to worry about me getting
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hurt, isn't it? You didn't care about
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hurting me. Just keeping him safe. Don't
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worry, I won't touch him. I don't want
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any diseases he might have given Tracy.
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The collective gasp from the group was a
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small victory. Elliot stood, holding out
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We've gotten off to a bad start. I hope
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we can be friends, or at least polite. I
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kept my hands at my side. First, since
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we're just meeting, Mr. Franklin, you
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should call me Mr. Wilson. I can't
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imagine our relationship warrants
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Second, you promise respect after
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showing blatant disrespect. I won't
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ignore your insulence and treat you
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politely in return. He explained their
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philosophy. a twisted logic of
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enlightened infidelity and mutual
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growth. They believed monogamy was
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outdated and their open relationships
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strengthened their marriages.
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"Tracy," he claimed, was just a novice
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he was helping. "So, you think you're
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some kind of Kasanova?" I asked, a sneer
7:50
on my face. "I am experienced and
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attentive," he boasted. "She will learn
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and grow, and you will benefit from her
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My heart once broken, now felt nothing
8:01
but a cold, burning hatred.
8:04
I had my ammunition. I had put my phone
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on record before I came out of the
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bathroom. I had them on tape, admitting
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their collective betrayal, their twisted
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My grin was forced, a mask for the chaos
8:17
I was planning to unleash. I walked to
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the garage to get my car, ignoring
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Tracy's plea for me to stay. I drove to
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Angus Steakhouse. The taste of tender
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beef, a welcome distraction from the
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My son was waiting for me. He was the
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only reason I hadn't lost my mind
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The next day, I talked to the vice
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president, Dan, and asked for a divorce
8:41
attorney recommendation.
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He pointed me to Beatatrice B. Thornton,
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a formidable lawyer who fought hard for
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her clients, regardless of gender.
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She laid out the terms, alimony for 3 to
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5 years, child support until Bobby
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turned 18, and a lengthy, difficult
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The average divorce in this state takes
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8 months if uncontested, a year if
9:05
contested, she said. Then let's get
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started, I replied. A new resolve
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hardening my heart. I asked her to serve
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Tracy at her office at 10:00 a.m. on a
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Friday when her co-workers would all be
9:20
It was a cold, calculated act of
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revenge, a mirror of the public
9:24
humiliation I had endured. When Tracy
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called, her voice trembling with
9:28
embarrassment and anger, I remained
9:30
calm. I have a job to do, and when have
9:33
I refused to talk to you? Let's resume
9:36
this conversation after work when we
9:39
That night, she tried to apologize.
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I'm sorry you saw those pictures and
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found out the way you did, she said, her
9:46
voice thick with fake sincerity. So,
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you're sorry I found out, not sorry you
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cheated. Got it, I replied, the anger
9:55
rising again. You and Elliot both failed
9:58
to consult me about infidelity. It's a
10:01
shame you trust his words over mine. He
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doesn't know me or our marriage, and
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apparently neither do you. Elliot told
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me that if I had approached you, things
10:10
would have gone smoothly. she said,
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still clinging to his delusion. He's
10:15
convinced you'll come around, but now
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I'm not sure. Why don't you call off the
10:18
divorce and let's get back to normal.
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Normal? I scoffed. That train has
10:23
derailed. You blew it up when you
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cheated. Just sign the papers and let's
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move on with our lives. You don't want
10:29
Bobby to end up in a single parent
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family, she pleaded. Reconciliation is
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It would hurt to hear him call another
10:37
man daddy, I said, my voice cold. But
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it's better than living in a house full
10:42
of lies and deceit. I wouldn't be part
10:44
of your group of infidelity.
10:46
They may be attractive, but they are
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disgusting to me. "You don't own me,
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Brian," she said, a new defiance in her
10:54
voice. "I never have and never will."
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"You're right," I said, the words a
11:01
final mournful blow. "I never claimed to
11:04
own you. I thought you were mine because
11:06
you said you gave yourself to me. Now
11:09
you've taken that back and given it to
11:11
another man. You've broken something in
11:13
me, Tracy, and I'm not sure it can be
11:15
fixed." With those words, I walked away,
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leaving her to sob in the hallway.
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I locked the door to the spare room. The
11:23
click of the lock, a final definitive
11:25
sound, a full stop at the end of our