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which was nice but then after I just

thought okay but I also told that same

story the other week to in a way that

was a little

inappropriate clearly there's something

that I need to deal with about this

whole thing i It sounds super cryptic

sorry no I love it i really want to have

coffee so I can be told the same thing

and then levy a verdict there's two ways

to think about it though right one is

you go ahead and be you and you're going

to weed out whoever that's not the right

fit for them because that served me

really well from 52 that's what I was

going to say one and a half years so

that's one side that's defendable but

then the other side is exactly that yeah

I do that and it does weed out people

and I think the people I'm weeding out

are the people are probably better

matches for me and I'm probably

attracting likeminded hyper explosive

overly intimate very quick and you got

to figure out which side of the line

you're on i think we're all very

self-aware people here who are aware of

ourselves our emotions our behaviors how

we want to show up in the world as

opposed to how we do actually show up in

the world right and so you just keep

trying to chip away and move towards

something and they're just those moments

where you go okay I'm not there yet

I agree that we all think we are but do

you think it's an illusion of

self-awareness

huh say more on that yeah so I guess

what I'm saying is I think we are all

semielf-aware and we know how to read a

room we know how to do this stuff but we

are who we are and at best it's a con

and at worst we're not even impressing

upon people what we think we are i think

a lot of us have the illusion of it but

really we all know who each other is

show off for a second yeah do it my

therapist told me last