I'm In Love With My Best Friend

2 years ago, we had the greatest summer of our lives. we tried to date but it ended up not working out because i was just young and irresponsible. we had a sad fall out but we're friendly i guess. she went on and got a new boyfriend who she dated for 14 months. In august she broke up with her boyfriend. We started talking again and our old friendship made it easy for us to get close again. We started having feelings again, but this time i knew i was ready. We went through the talking stage for a month or so because she was still hurt from her breakup and obviously needed time. Eventually she told me she liked me but she was still hurt and couldn't be her best self for me if she was still broken. It's about 3 weeks later now and we still talk as friends. I respected her decision of course, we're friends before anything. But i'm really starting to feel in love with her. i don't look at her for lust or something stupid. i see her for who she is, and she and I have the same dreams in life. She's the one i want to be with. I just don't want to say anything too soon. It wouldn't be fair to her. But i can't keep these feelings bottled up inside it's emotionally draining. I want to just tell her to get it over with but I know it goes 1 of 2 ways. I can't sleep at night thinking about her and it hurts knowing this and feeling like i'm lying. #love #friend