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honestly oh my God I think I I um and
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then yeah I have a I bought a little H sorry I have a little um mic here but
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then yeah the um WiFi wasn't [Music]
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working oh my God mattress they're literally sold out everywhere this was
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the last one in
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like yeah oh my gosh but but yeah I'm hotspotting off my phone uh today hi
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Marathon oh my God hey Sean and I need to fix all the alerts and stuff but it
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seems like a lot of people must be getting into streaming cuz everything is sold out
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yes yes we're trying to be a um professional streamer like I haven't I
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haven't like adjusted the um lighting and the rest of
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it yeah I'm hot spotting and uh this is why I'm like not sure if
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it's how it is like with the hot spot so I'm not like it doesn't
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hey hello it doesn't like get
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choppy okay okay
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good broke out into a sweat I already ate as well I know I know in um the disc
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called I said I'll have lunch with you guys but I was I was too hungry and stressed
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and yeah it's because it's because I really wanted to
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come
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online what what time is it um where you guys
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are hi a how are
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you I had um what's it called 1 13 Sean
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you're up you're up late I would have come on earlier I'm telling you guys if
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I like this is the webcam that I was using
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and um it just it just wouldn't work I'm pretty
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sure the cord is broken but I really want to come on um
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at like you know way
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earlier like I would have been on like 4 hours earlier if I didn't you
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know have to run around and stuff no you can't FX because the the
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cord is attached to the webcam like
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yeah hey righteous oh thanks
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Sean we we'll calm down and then we'll we'll get into um the stream I don't
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even know these days guys like I have to say cutting the be cutting paper bees
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was good for me as well cuz it gave me an activity to do whilst like hanging out with you guys because sometimes as I
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when I come online I'm like oh my gosh how do I structure my thoughts and
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structure the stream
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really I missed the bees as well they were they were a therapeutic like
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activity for me um hi
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Lucien yeah righteous we we need to um I I should do a Dono go this was this
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was expensive man look it was 228 bucks it was the
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only webcam that they had in the [ __ ] shop everywhere was sold
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out so like there was there was no webcam available [ __ ] there was
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nothing available this is um by the way
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$228 Australian but yeah
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[ __ ] yeah not the cheapest thing but you know
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it's it's a necessity I I I would have got this one
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but they they were sold out everywhere just put it as a Dono goal
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even if I already bought it isn't that cheating hi
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frck hey Johnny do it all right if if
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you if you say so wait is that 100 100 all right all
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right you know oh no I feel like I'm like I'm
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cheating it's okay guys forget it forget it forget
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it um thanks Eastwood
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hey Trish's potato thank you for subscribing again just just add
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it off okay if if you're sure I
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suppose he wait donation
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goal um
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widgets um okay
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webcam what was it 160
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USD um zero I hate how on streamlabs you have
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to put the month before the day it always confuses me as a yeah cuz
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we just we don't do that here in Australia
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because like can someone explain why you put the month before the day in AOS to the day
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before the month like how does that make
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sense [Music]
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um oh no worries Roy hey hey um f how are you hey Kansas
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yeah hi NES how are you I've got the hot water bottle here
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you know no so Trisha we we do the day the
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month and then the um year whereas in the States you
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guys do the month the day and then the year which
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makes no sense at all because if you would you'd say my birthday is on the
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12th of the 6th 2020 you know for
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instance you wouldn't say wait oh my birthday's yeah I don't
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know I don't know I I six of didn't know yet
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oh that's good project snooper
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Valley anyway guys anyway how how are we
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all hey s suie my birthday is on June
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5th see I would say my birthday is on no my birthday is on the 5th of
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June yeah yeah right yeah yeah that yeah
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anyway um thank you six wings and fries yeah I would say that yeah I would
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say that yeah Canadians are the same as
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Australians though yeah hey C dub how are you
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yeah you're American thank you
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Kansas is it even clearer this webcam or it looks the F does it look the same as
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the other one I think it looks the same right
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I oh I know sure I'm telling you Sean this time is the well- behaved time if
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you if you want like sleazier all the sleazy rude unbehaved
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chat is like during the European Euro friendly time zone like these Americans
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are awake that's why look you you guys have won me over i' i'
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I've Been Around the Clock I've tested the the time zones and
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th this is um a better time yeah oh hang on let me switch on a
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light is
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that um oh that's the other thing that's the
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other thing I haven't like for some reason the webcam doesn't seem to be
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adjusted it it won't open up with the Logitech gaming software so I will have
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to download I think there's specific software for
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this cam in particular so I I will have to like
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download it so I can turn the auto zoom off and also adjust the white balance
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and stuff six wings and fries oh my God thank you so much for the 1,000 views
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you're repping the UK hey is it a little bit late in the UK I have the Logitech
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capture this isn't this isn't working it won't pick up the cam V like
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that's the software won't pick it up um cuz I hate having uh
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autofocus on
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hi nabin hi incredible bad why am I
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waving hi oh okay me yeah I'll figure I'll
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figure all this out I I'll figure this
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out thanks delicious potato thanks hey is I keep Miss missing Trisha I keep
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missing her online I need to visit
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her oh it's natural light as well usually cuz this place is quite dark
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guys so I'm in um I'm in natural light
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what do you mean fun one when I'm Elena oh I wanted her to come online with me
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this week um but she's very cautious hey Inferno
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you know with the whole Corona thing she's very like she's she's a cautious girl so I have to like I hope it depends
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whether her area is um under lockdown or not but like like I'm trying to get her
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to come over um so that we can stream during
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this earlier than now around midday hour time
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um yeah cuz then cuz then you guys can get
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to know her a bit better as well uh oh Peter Peter Tran you changed
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your username um oh I haven't found a place yet Sean I
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I'm still I will probably have to extend my stay here yeah you
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know yeah
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yeah yeah yeah I think I think finding furnished is a furnished place is hard
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here M psycho boom thank you so
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much how come I added the webcam bar
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because I didn't want to Sinclair it's cuz my webcam broke
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unexpectedly today um so I've I've I had to force
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myself to dig out of my saving things to buy a
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webcam sadly I think the cord is broken the the
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laptop W to take
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it yeah yeah I don't even know how I like
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yeah I'll I'll I'll I'll try to put it on my taxes that's right right
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um anyway yeah be I had to I have to wiggle
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around the cord sometimes it detects it and then I don't know I've I've just had
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like issues all
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morning thank you Panther ninja hello I must streamer and I'm
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needing a little help help with what
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darling uh anyway
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anyway uh let's talk what have I been up
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to I know see what I mean like you know
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what I I should I feel like I should do sometimes when I come on stream is have a like action plan in terms of what I
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want to talk about you know how I said like when I
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see I see my psychologists I like I now write bullet
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points down about the things that I want to discuss with her I feel like I almost have to like do
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it with you guys because there's so many topics I'd love to cover and talk
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about um oh she's a woman she's a woman
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yeah I know that's the thing about it Sean
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right cuz cuz if I if I don't write down or consider the things that I want to
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talk talk about then it just like I I
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often [Music] um feel like it becomes a little bit
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repetitive um I don't know I do I do have that issue I think of being
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repetitive for sure
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I've never I haven't been to Gold Coast in probably 10 years hi
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okawari oh my friend good it was good
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v um I am catching up I do like a bulk catch up with all my
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friends like once or twice a year I will catch up with all of them
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like in bulk and then I won't see them for six
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months and then I'll I'll do another bulk catchup and then I won't see them again in another six months do any of
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you guys do bulk catch-ups with your mates um I I do want to sort of get it all out
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of the way um
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I look so nice with my tattoos Co covered up why I like my
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tattoos a bulk catchup is when you you arrange to see all your
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friends in like the same period of time so it's like okay this Friday I'm seeing
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this person and then the following Tuesday I'm seeing this person like all within a month and then you don't see
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anyone for ages and then you do it again yeah I I I do that with my
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um with my friend yeah that actually it's not even
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by annual it is it's annual catchup not even
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quarterly I sound like an awful friend um honestly it's it makes I'm
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quite FL I can admit that I am a flaky person like I I bail a lot and I need friends
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who are so bail that way like there's a mutual
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understanding cuz like sometimes it's if you have yeah
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yeah you don't want to disappoint the other person you know what I
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mean yeah it it's very much sometimes sometimes actually this happens with um
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Lena sometimes when she bails I'm like
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yes yes I'm like all right great and and I I
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secretly love it if she bails because then I can bail the following time and
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she can't say anything because she's already bailed on me and vice versa it
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like gives us credit within our baale our Bale
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book you know yeah
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yeah and then after 8 months it's okay we've bailed enough on each other we
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can we can um catch
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up I I would say her bail book is bigger oh actually she's probably
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actually she's probably more social than uh
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me that sounds surprising but yeah I I'm
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extremely antisocial thank you
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devs I'm afraid am I afraid of of commitment I think I'm afraid of
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rejection well when I was younger I think I think it was a coping mechanism
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I I would be too afraid that I would get sick of people and people would get sick of me so I avoided
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contact with others uh particularly people who I really like or I enjoy their company I
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will then um sort of keep a certain distance just to be able to sustain the
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relationship over a long period of time because I I find like I don't like the
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idea of burning out my company with someone that I I really
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enjoy you like some people go really hard and then they get over it like I
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just don't want to go hard with someone and get get over them
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so sometimes keeping a distance works and if they are alsoo understanding or
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enjoy that distance then um that's a friendship that will last for a long
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time if there's that Mutual understanding if not then uh say love V
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you know what can do I get I got this one
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I got this one this Logitech stream
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cam yeah well distance makes the heart grow
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fer for the right people
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right if you if if if there's distance and then you sort of forget about them
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then that's not really a friendship that's wor worth
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keeping that's awful but it's
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true um I'm I'm back in Melvin I'm back in Melvin
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[Music]
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um yeah but but but now as an adult as an
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adult I've just sort of accepted that this is the way I am
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um yeah I didn't always come have
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like was so accepting of that aspect uh Within
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Myself it's easier definitely as you approach your 30s or late adulthood to
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come to terms with that but obviously when you're younger you want to you know
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fit in and there's more pressures to fit in if you go to uh
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School uh or you are in certain environments with which call for more
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social interaction um you know like at school
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and stuff you're so forced to mingle
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oh so boy they are sold out everywhere I went to three different stores Darling before I could find a
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webcam that's it uh z1x it's true and I like that I like
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that um actually this was something that was interesting to me when I did have
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learn on stream hey spy how are you darling um a lot of people were really
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see some people seemed uh surprised that they were like how long have you guys
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known each other or they were like oh because we don't really talk about
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the mundane everyday sort of things with each other you
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know um so a lot of people were like oh are you really best
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friends like yeah we we've we've been together uh we sorry we've been friends um oh
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it's because I'm using Hotpot it's not because of the webcam the Wi-Fi is not
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working so so yeah we don't I I don't talk about the Munday and everyday
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things um with her like if if I'm getting a yeah exactly if I'm getting a
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tattoo or if I'm doing
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uh I I don't like message her and tell her every single detail of my life we we
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don't have that sort of relationship we are much more of a let's talk about our
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feelings and emotions sort of
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friendship
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yeah I my Vietnamese is really bad hi corpse gal um sorry
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wary I'm in the city um what other high
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popcorn Z okay zelex Hunter sorry if I've missed saying
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hello to some of you VI Dagon queer Chief if I've missed you you can just
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say hello again um yeah look my Vietnamese is a
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apping yeah like it's it's really bad
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I
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hello oh um you can leave at the post office that's okay I can pick it
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up yeah yep that's fine that's fine no worries okay okay no worries
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bye okay sorry
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DHL um hi W
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one oh did I miss something psycho boom yes oh yep she can
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kick you in the face that's right oh I was only in Perth for two weeks um
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y I'm not Filipino no I'm Vietnamese but
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I I don't speak Vietnamese uh oh thank you
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SEO basa are you Spanish I'm in Melbourne what was I
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saying I was on a I was saying
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something oh look at you corpse skull thank you so much what was I [ __ ]
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saying don't know oh yeah yeah yeah uh Hey
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farmer I know the first time that she came on it was a lot of [ __ ] talking because she's she's been interested in
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getting into um you know caming
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specifically the adult work but of course as a friend I'm very
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protective of her because I I am aware of the sort of mental health issues that
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she experiences so that's why I said why don't you try tweet and see if you're
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comfortable um even on
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ham um and if if this is okay then you
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can try uh adult work adult
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content yeah but she she's pretty she's a runchy girl you know you know what
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is coming can really [ __ ] you up in a few ways in the sense like I think a lot
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of people who do online streaming or coming work
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they not everyone obviously yeah Case by Case by Case by Case by
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case um but like there's a certain level of validation that comes from being
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online uh particularly when you do adult work and everything revolves around you
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your sense of worth comes um from the amount of money you
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earn they M people that watch you um it's it's very easy to fall
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within that mental Mind Trap so that's why with her I'm quite protective of
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her but um you know of of course I'm going to be
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of course I'm going to be protective of my friend
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right Z I know this is what I was saying you know I was like you can't be sending
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I you can't she's an infj yeah you can't be sending naked photos to your
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viewers
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um I I'd be like darling it's not like Tinder where you can have forign sex
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with everyone um you you do realize that if you want to be a cat girl you you can't
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be giving that stuff away for free people have to pay for it
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right I mean like it's not it's not like Tinder
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darling I I I think um and and that's that's why I mean like
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the the online the online um world can be like
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that a um hi ghost hi hi Benny
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yeah as much you know what's interesting as much as I think viewers can um
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dehumanize the streamer not realize um that the streamer is a human I think
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it's very easy for the streamer to dehumanize the people that the viewers
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as well because on our end we see these names on the screen the usernames your
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comments and it it's it's so so like you know it happens on both
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ends yeah yeah you know what this top does make my boobs look big I agree
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maybe because it makes my arms look skinnier you know I don't know
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um who knows who knows
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um yeah that's it that's it
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uh hang anyway anyway who's Betty faret we don't know
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who Betty faret is never heard of Betty faret
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before thank you Johnny I like who is this
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person do we
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care you know actually what topic I have um I've been
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a bit interested in as of late and I was talking about this with
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my with a A friend of mine yesterday actually cuz you know she was talking
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about a past relationship that she was in and we were talking about we were
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talking about abusive behaviors in
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relationships and
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um you know what's not talked about that often is
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um quite openly it's abuse uh domestic domestic violence but
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against men in relationships I didn't realize the statistics of that um
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it's quite shocking actually it's quite shocking the the statistics on domestic
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abuse of
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males yeah it's it's really interesting it's really interesting hang on let me pull up some statistics
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here male uh domestic
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it's it's fascinating it's fascinating because I
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think
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um well this is the thing Johnny this is the thing cuz I was we were talking and
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you know you know how I'm quite passionate about mental health
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and uh mental health amongst
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men like we can't forget that yeah 75% of suicides within Australia men but
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also within relationships I I think a lot of males uh feel
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to embarrassed to talk openly about the issues they experien particularly if it
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if it's uh in a their relationship
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like we what a lot of guys don't want to admit that their their girlfriend is
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[ __ ] beating them up right right or or they feel or they feel
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like no one would believe them like if they went to the police
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station uh the the police the would probably feel like the police will like laugh at them or
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something yeah exactly Gat gatsu that's true
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Legion I don't know I find it I find it interesting cuz you know how yeah I I
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I've been going through this phase of watching um a whole ton of murder
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mysteries uh Murder Mysteries and serial killers and all of this stuff and there
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was a situation I think it was in the UK this woman was so abusive to her partner
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and he died uh hey I got to pull up the case but it's it's it's really sad it's
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really sad well SAS that's a problem see this
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this is precisely comments that are the problem see imagine letting your y
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sorry yo I can't I I can't do that in the
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accent that I think you're saying it in like yo girl anyway imagine letting your
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girl bit you up those are precisely the the types of comments that are the issue
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here because that insinuates that you should like there's
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like this disbelief s system that oh imagine a girl bending you up but the
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fact is it does happen it does happen I
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mean men are taught from uh you know
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as I mean men and women were socially conditioned to feel that we have to feat
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a certain mold right um um and and and comments like
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that are exactly why men are too afraid to openly admit or discuss the issues
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that they face within their relationships cuz often they you know it
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don't feel like anyone would believe them um and and I can say this openly and
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honestly because I've been in a position especially because you know I talk
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openly about my my mental illness and my BPD and so forth but I have been very em
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I I have been narcissistic in my relationships I have been emotionally
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abusive in my relationships and even I I dare say
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aggressive you know and and I can recognize that on
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both sides it's only when I was you know seeking professional help
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that I can understand my own shortcomings and be able to improve
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myself but I think it's important to talk about what to look
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for uh in certain situations and my heart breaks when When someone tells me
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about their situation even a male and he says the things that his partner says to
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him uh I can identify with both sides really I can sympathize with the
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man but also I can understand that hurt people hurt
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people you know um but even remember like though although you
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can explain behavior it doesn't justify behavior and that comes from a lot
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of uh abuse you know you can you can
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learn to understand where the abusive Behavior comes from although that doesn't mean you have to that that
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doesn't mean you're justifying that behavior you
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know well anyway
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um but yeah a lot of men experience it and it's really interesting and it's
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really sad [Music]
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um hi handsome geek
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anyway anyway there's so many things you can look out for as well I think a lot of
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people when they enter relationships with someone who has a mental illness
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and I've experienced this with a lot of men that hey that wanted to be with me is that they
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see a girl who who clearly has mental health
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issues cuz I am quite open about it and there's almost this like saving complex
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right like I want to help this girl I want to save this girl and uh there
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there is a lot of patience there from the other from the man the guy entering
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the relationship with me right oh thank you merfolk but the thing
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is the thing is right you shouldn't go into a relationship wanting to save the
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other person because at the end of the day you're not chances are you're not
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equipped to be able to provide their person the sort of help that is required
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for them to improve like they need to see a professional
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they need a professional to help them and um but a lot of and a lot of the
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time um when you uh you feel in you're
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in love or you really like a person you can
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make excuses for their behavior because you so desperately want to be with
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them um and so you will let them step over your boundaries you will let the you
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will create a dynamic whereby their behaviors
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are justifiable um but you happens on both
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both ends men do this with hurt girls and girls do this with boys and vice
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versa um hi orian slave I know it has been a
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long time exactly Sean and and it it can be
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hard to step out of that as well have I been in a relationship like
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that well this is the interesting thing I have been on the end whereby I am the
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girl that the guy has been wanted to save I've been in relationships and and I think this is
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why I try to speak openly about this because I'm accountable for the
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behaviors I I tried [ __ ] I Tred to be accountable for my
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behaviors um the guys I have been with in my past have all all been really
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mostly good to me yeah yeah and but they they have come in with the desire to
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help me and um and Rescue Me
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um so that yeah you
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know it's walking on eggshells guys it's walking on eggshells like
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um yeah when you're involved in tox oh exactly
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Sean do you think if a guy has the want to help the person with mental issues is
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best to Aid the professional in helping them or is the patient or is
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it well both both I think I think if you want to be in a relationship with a
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person who has a mental illness sometimes that can carry over to you as
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well there there are people that will seek mental help
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in because
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if you're in a relationship with someone with a mental
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illness or you are the one with a mental illness and you're in a relationship you have to
47:46
understand that it's not easy for either party uh a if a person really wants to
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be with me uh with the awareness that I have my
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mental health issues I wouldn't be opposed to them seeing someone
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either I mean they C books like yeah walking on eggshell there's books like
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uh I I hate you don't leave
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me um which help people who know someone with BPD on how to deal
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with that person but but again you have to understand that it's not it's
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not um and you shouldn't be offended by that either you should well look there I
48:42
shouldn't say shouldn't but like you have to realize that your pain
48:49
carries on to the other person that you're in a relationship with as well often
48:56
[Laughter] I have borderline personality
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disorder um have I been in a relationship where
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I'm trying to save the
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guy no I I wouldn't say that I have no I I
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would say it's generally the guy trying to rescue
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me if I'm being completely honest here but but yeah I remember I remember the
49:32
first time a guy was like to me look man look I I need I need to get help like if
49:40
if I want to be in a relationship like he's like he was like to me I want to be with you so
49:46
desperately he's like you um you are the perfect girl for me even
49:54
with all the issues that you exper experience uh but even then he still
50:01
needed help in terms of how to emotionally manage uh and be able to be
50:11
in a relationship with me productively because you
50:17
can't we it's not like we're handed a booklet on how to deal with people right
50:24
but that's with anyone like when you enter Rel relationship it's not just so
50:29
easy breezy there's no there's no book on how to be in a
50:35
relationship um I I
50:42
remember look [ __ ] see how I'm talking about this um so openly but I remember
50:49
when he said this initially and I found myself to be quite a
50:57
offended right I was like excuse me what are you saying about me you're saying
51:05
that I'm so flawed that you need to see a psychologist in order to be in a relationship with me I was so offended
51:12
by that but at the same time I can't expect someone to uh be able to have the
51:22
um necessarily the um
51:30
yeah look BPD is hard to deal with he he even he like he needed um skills to be
51:39
able to understand the mental illness and where certain behaviors come from
51:44
and I think I think that if you have are in a relationship or have a friend or
51:50
have a family member who suffers no worries Ace who suffers from Mental
51:56
Health issues uh sometimes it does help reading up about it to be able to understand
52:04
yeah where those behaviors come from because it's not so simple as being
52:09
saying oh that person's a [ __ ] that person is an [ __ ] there's no like
52:15
simple answer we are the way we are for a reason BL blazing mate come on I'm
52:24
ignoring everyone at this point and I not like I this is what happens when I go on a tangent in terms of what I'm
52:32
talking about and stuff like that like come on relax
52:41
relax oh my God so
52:47
demanding I mean I
52:53
mean yeah I it's true but the thing is right how can you have a prod how can I
52:59
have a productive conversation with you guys if all I'm doing is answering
53:05
question after question after question after question because by doing so you
53:10
guys don't get to know me and neither do I am I able to get to know you
53:18
guys
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right no Drey I couldn't imagine anything there would be nothing worse
53:28
than doing 4 years of University to be a therapist and then another 2 years of I
53:35
don't know assisting and then you know it takes like [ __ ] eight 10
53:41
years I I couldn't TR I look you know I'm just not like academic
53:50
in that sense going going to school back to University I couldn't imagine
53:55
anything worse no um
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right you dated a narcissistic person I would say I am the one that has
54:07
narcissistic behaviors but I think actually you know what I think everyone
54:14
has a bit of narciss narcissistic traits uh really and we can delve into
54:22
that I I am quite fascinated about uh narcissism as a topic um in
54:33
general uh yeah I think I think we all have
54:38
a we can all have yeah narcissistic traits does that make
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make us a narcissist no but
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um did he have BP BPD in borderline personality
54:59
disorder I've been doing DBT on and off I have my like
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oh do I no I yeah I have my I have a BPD like hand out work book
55:15
thing would you would you guys want to go through DP DBT exercises together one
55:23
day we can do we can do T be two exercises one
55:29
day um I I'll have to whip out the
55:37
book and then we maybe we can we can you guys can help me and I can perhaps help
55:44
you guys with uh your with with uh you know this stuff
55:57
yes exactly Sean if you if you guys can read what sha uh yeah right has
56:03
said that's it borderline personality disorder though it has um it's it's it's
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again it's a behavioral it's a a personality disorder
56:16
so yeah it it tends to affect your interpersonal relationships but I think it could be
56:23
interesting uh to do exercises
56:30
together the subreddit for children raised by narcissist
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yes that's me
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yeah um C well that's the thing a lot of people have a sense of
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entitlement right and I do I certainly
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do uh I think I think in a way in know way would you
57:05
guys agree that anytime you feel ungrateful or you are not practicing gratitude is that in a
57:14
sense uh entitlement because you Des you feel
57:19
that you deserve more is that entitled me and that's why you're not feeling
57:24
grateful for what you have do you think
57:32
so what the [ __ ] is this sound oh
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no that's weird um you don't think so okay see you
57:44
himman in a way but not entirely well look we're talking about partly there's
57:51
no right or wrong answer here uh everything is Right everything
57:57
sorry everything has some validity in it
58:02
uh whilst not entirely you know again I always have to say Case by Case by Case
58:08
by Case by case obviously Case by Case by Case by
58:14
case but like we we we should be able to have some general discussions right
58:28
but anyway all humans are greedy selfish brainwash ignorant and never will admit
58:37
it I think also I think I we've all been socially conditioned to
58:44
be this way to desire more to want more uh I think also we have come to
58:52
terms with it as well right in part there's there's a certain level of
59:00
self-defeat that that we know that no one is perfect and so it excuses our
59:07
Behavior to be better do you think that is the case
59:13
it's like oh I mean no one's perfect I mean what
59:20
does it matter if I am doing this or I have these desires that are not so
59:26
humble Etc it's not like anyone else is so it's just like whatever whatever I'll
59:35
just be the way that I am I'm
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Australian
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um yes well entitlement and uh deserving
59:57
I can't read Russian darling no I haven't
1:00:06
Johnny um if you if you don't agree then uh
1:00:12
feel free to write your what you think that's cool that sorry that's cool
1:00:21
that's true coold that's true cold anything can be justified but but that's the thing
1:00:27
there's no right or wrong answer on anything everything has validity and all
1:00:32
arguments are based on uh you know a variety of
1:00:43
factors have I worked in a dance club definitely not or performed on camera
1:00:48
well I'm a cam model who's taking a break
1:00:59
um over
1:01:08
it hang on I was about to say something else another
1:01:16
point oh this is um the other thing about a certain level entitlement or
1:01:23
that entitlement also makes us or a lot of people feel [ __ ] depressed or feel
1:01:30
that they're lacking in life and and I use it uh even like the
1:01:37
most basic examples such as a relationship marriage Hy Prav all of
1:01:44
those factors right you feel like everyone gets married so oh everyone's
1:01:51
in a relationship or everyone has a career why shouldn't I
1:01:56
that that and then you feel like [ __ ] but then you think maybe it's because you there is a certain level of
1:02:02
entitlement in terms of believing that you oh just ban him Johnny that guy
1:02:09
doesn't even deserve to be here the [ __ ] um thank
1:02:15
you you know you you you have this idea in your life that because everyone else
1:02:23
is doing something that you deserve it or if everyone else has something you
1:02:29
deserve it um and that makes you feel like you're lacking within your own
1:02:38
life um
1:02:50
yeah oh send it to me sh send it to me the thing is do we do
1:02:58
any of us really deserve anything or uh
1:03:03
sorry wrong choice of words the feeling of deserving is
1:03:10
different from the feeling of entitled men
1:03:18
yeah um I I wouldn't say that's the right word
1:03:33
don't you hate language sometimes
1:03:39
guys it's just like you can't sometimes you can't find the right
1:03:46
words to express yourself and even then language is constantly
1:03:51
changing um and the use of words is constantly
1:04:07
changing
1:04:13
anyway that's true sh but a lot of
1:04:18
people yeah actually that yeah actually shall
1:04:24
yeah yeah yeah yeah I guess that's what's the the the difference between the feeling of entit man and the feeling
1:04:30
of being deserving but at the at the same time do you feel like the word deserving can all
1:04:37
be subjective because what is hard work to one person might not be the same to
1:04:45
another person and vice you know what I mean like wouldn't that bring into
1:04:50
question what makes one deserving and how how do you quantify it
1:04:57
that right right like like it all comes from
1:05:05
a feeling it all comes from a
1:05:10
feeling and then and then it brings into other question does it matter what other people think or why why should we allow
1:05:19
others to quantify that for
1:05:24
us uh uh
1:05:34
yeah oh [ __ ] go get go [ __ ] off you dumb [ __ ] if you're bored no one's forcing
1:05:40
you here I ain't sitting on your [ __ ] face you dumb [ __ ]
1:05:49
um um flow deck deserving pleas you have
1:05:55
done something of worth but who defines that the value that's
1:06:04
true I love these see I love these conversations that I have with you guys
1:06:10
because I'm able to consider things for myself even even in terms of my own like
1:06:16
thought processes I can question my own thinking and uh this this is why don't
1:06:24
don't ever listen to me guys because my opinion can change so
1:06:33
drastically uh within a
1:06:40
day how many followers does the clevage get me I don't know darling if it varies
1:06:47
day by day by day by day it depends how horny people are it depends what I'm talking about it depends on many factors
1:06:59
yeah fluid opinion exactly I I I I
1:07:06
um yeah I forgot what I was about to say
1:07:15
again uh fedal have you ever thought about what it would be like to be famous how mentally hard it would be see I've
1:07:22
always been a very private individual fow
1:07:28
um the only thing I I want in my life is to be financially
1:07:34
stable that way I can have my you know kids and a
1:07:40
dog and a part you know yeah that's
1:07:51
it but but this is the thing this is the thing Johnny what what is fa what is
1:07:57
Twitch Fame really like it it it doesn't mean so much I mean anyone can be
1:08:04
anybody within a day and and lose it within another day it's it's sort of uh
1:08:11
what is it like there's nothing I don't want to focus on
1:08:19
anything in my life that's um that's so unstable like that you know
1:08:26
like um you know the the only thing I truly
1:08:33
have is me myself and I every everything else is just is just
1:08:41
fluff really I mean even even money you can have you
1:08:47
can have money one day and no money the next day you know like that that stuff
1:08:53
shouldn't matter
1:09:08
no I think I think money Fame all of that it's just a like
1:09:16
um this the S of distractions from what's
1:09:21
important I mean you can have anything you so you can have everything and still
1:09:27
feel like you have nothing it's all a
1:09:33
mindset um did I get a boob
1:09:39
job from when my boob job was October last
1:09:50
year depends how you got money do you want to elaborate on that
1:09:56
let's elaborate on that depends how you got money let's elaborate on that that
1:10:09
sentence like like uh when when people discuss about an honest
1:10:16
living is is it as far as I'm concerned it should
1:10:22
just be a matter of whether one pays their taxes is or
1:10:27
not am I right like uh that's an honest living if
1:10:34
as long as you pay your your taxes you're not cheating cheating anyone of
1:10:40
you you're paying the government uh what you owe and exactly it depends how you
1:10:47
define honest as well um
1:10:59
yeah people's definition of honest is yeah it CH it it varies
1:11:05
drastically uh and again that's all a matter of context as well um
1:11:14
yeah yeah guys I've I've been I've been on I'm on a little bit of a bender in
1:11:19
terms of spending money oh wait someone said hang on I
1:11:25
think soorry I'm so sorry guys can I just say sometimes people write hello me
1:11:31
comment hello and stuff and like I read it in my head but sometimes I forget to
1:11:36
verbalize and say hello in response but I I I think I've already said it because
1:11:42
I've said it in my mind hi bamboo
1:11:49
so I told you sometimes I get very like in the in the like of conversing I just
1:11:56
like enjoy the [ __ ] talk you know like
1:12:04
um yeah I'll see you guys isn't it so nice
1:12:12
I love coming online at this during this time zone hi oh thank you
1:12:18
sh um because it's so much less leazy hi panop oh sorry Bazinga that's it hey
1:12:27
Bazinga sorry that was who I was thinking I was thinking of you I did see
1:12:33
your hello but I forgot to return my hello to
1:12:40
you see you ch um my birthday was well I spent my
1:12:47
birthday uh with you gu on Twitch um and yeah it was nice hi Al Patron
1:12:56
um honestly I I was so like I'm still really moved that I'd be able to form
1:13:03
the relationships and friendships I have um with you guys on Twitch like
1:13:10
seriously it means a lot to me um having your
1:13:17
friendship uh don't worry Binger this is a weird time hi kiry
1:13:26
no I really I do really enjoy it uh you guys help me more than than
1:13:32
you know um hi
1:13:40
icy oh well great CL I don't I don't know you enough to consider by the way
1:13:46
when I say consider I consider you guys my friends I mean a select few of you
1:13:53
not all of you obvious ly I mean
1:13:59
yeah um sound mbour there's a few suburbs that
1:14:05
are locked down
1:14:11
yeah I know those sort of comments like see I forget that sometimes you there's
1:14:17
some comments that Auto mod picks up that you guys can't see there's an individual here that said I would love
1:14:25
Hannah is a [ __ ] buddy like darling that's never going to
1:14:32
happen especially with a comment like that I have to teach you how to get the
1:14:37
ladies like do you really
1:14:43
think I mean if you want me to flirt with you you have to be nice you have to
1:14:49
use some strategy here
1:14:55
actually the chat's very well behaved hey Pete Peter hey oh wait is that your no
1:15:03
Zach hi Zach how are you
1:15:11
um a little late but people that are making money without the exploitation of another would be what I consider honest
1:15:19
money do Z that's very interesting that's very interesting
1:15:28
are we not all exploiting someone else oh thank you karate Cowboy like the
1:15:36
the the whole conversation around exploitation are we not all exploiting
1:15:43
something or rather or endorsing industries that
1:15:48
exploit someone or something I mean even the fact that you buy a clothing f from
1:15:55
you consume fast fashion from I don't know H&M are you not endorsing
1:16:01
industries that you know adopt slave labor as a means to
1:16:08
make money I mean
1:16:13
it is anything everything and anything can be exploitation I mean if we're
1:16:20
talking about the bystander effect are you not still supporting other IND
1:16:25
Industries uh which are not honest is that right
1:16:33
either like I think I think I think
1:16:41
um explore and collaborate like you know what I mean
1:16:48
like the the whole concept of an honest living is just
1:16:56
I don't
1:17:01
know unless we're talking about unless we're talking about I don't know selling
1:17:07
diet pills or something I guess uh actually that's
1:17:14
true I mean even if you pay your taxes doesn't mean
1:17:19
you're doing something that's morally
1:17:25
like morally morally good I
1:17:36
mean
1:17:44
yeah honest living reflects on your own Mo morals and whether or not your work lives up to those moral
1:17:51
standards it's different for each individual yeah
1:17:56
yeah I think I think we have to I think we have to accept
1:18:10
that yeah look I suppose we can
1:18:19
only try be the best that we can
1:18:25
you know I mean it's so hard being perfect
1:18:30
right we're all going to die
1:18:36
anyway that's the only truth
1:18:42
um so
1:18:48
yeah um death and Texas correct
1:19:02
I wish there were more ethical standards for making a living weren't that like
1:19:08
but then you wouldn't want that either that's like hi hypnotized thank
1:19:13
you hypnotized that's that's like policing others right others rights
1:19:21
that's there's too much of a slippery slide there even
1:19:29
because like who who can write those
1:19:34
standards yeah oh hey horny no
1:19:40
worries what is the best test for webcam I don't know doing a [ __ ] show or
1:19:50
something in a month I'll try that
1:19:55
after my my
1:20:02
break yeah um yeah the slippery
1:20:07
slope oh life is so
1:20:17
slippery yeah oh I've been drinking Sprite V
1:20:27
morals aren't Rel the majority of people know oh hang
1:20:35
on why you on a break because I'm [ __ ] I'm over it
1:20:42
guys overcoming over I just need a break you know like I said I do my like three
1:20:51
to three to um 3 to four 4 month cycles
1:20:56
of everything oh [ __ ] my top went Bel low there
1:21:03
um whoops
1:21:10
um hang on I know I'm wearing sleeves today
1:21:21
guys um I need oh I need to do more like
1:21:26
cute emotes and [ __ ] like that I have to go on oh that wasn't I don't think I showed
1:21:34
anything I didn't show anything there was no nipples or anything it was just you
1:21:39
know unsafe
1:21:45
territory yeah I need to look at some Asian like streamers and know look at all the little cute little faces that
1:21:52
they do I need I need some cute faces to You
1:22:00
Know M my blue black hair my blue my hair isn't blue
1:22:06
black hi chef Robert
1:22:14
Lee I'm so bimbo you think I'm a bimbo I suppose I can be
1:22:26
oh it's just the lighting it's the lighting
1:22:32
um I haven't I don't know how to adjust the webcam the white
1:22:38
balance yeah you guys will give me [ __ ] if I like try be cute and
1:22:44
stuff um I actually want bleach I want to bleach parts of my hair
1:22:53
blonde um um guys would would would we be down for
1:22:59
that I want a Cella DeVille sort of
1:23:06
moment yeah yeah I oh thank you Connor look I've been
1:23:12
saying it for months I've been saying to V for months I want more remes than that and then and then he's like send me send
1:23:20
me aote send me AEM and I'm like damn I suck at taking selfies guys like
1:23:28
I I I need to put in the effort to take the [ __ ]
1:23:34
selfies what's the last book that I read shamefully I bought the the art the
1:23:40
subtle art of not giving a [ __ ] I still haven't finished it I've had this book
1:23:45
for months for over three months like I'm pretty bad at reading guys uh I'll
1:23:52
be honest like
1:23:57
yeah I know I'm lazy I I I wish that I was more uh I was well
1:24:07
read but I used to read so much as a kid honestly I just don't know what
1:24:16
happened where are you come from I'm from
1:24:22
Australia she's still in chapter one that oh that's
1:24:28
true I'm not lazy I shouldn't use we we tend to use a very like strong languages
1:24:37
language with ourselves right you know you don't like something suddenly you're
1:24:43
lazy you're this you're that no I'm sometimes lazy I'm not lazy I'm
1:24:50
sometimes lazy
1:24:56
yeah what what what thirst traps I don't even know
1:25:01
what that
1:25:10
is right do you guys do that too you find it hard to self motivate at
1:25:19
school and then you say oh I'm so unmotivated no
1:25:26
chances are you're sometimes unmotivated that doesn't make you a unmotivated
1:25:32
person you know what I mean well you can be an unmotivated person but a lot of
1:25:38
the time you do enjoy doing certain things as well for example I don't know
1:25:44
you're motivated to game but you're unmotivated to do the
1:25:51
laundry
1:25:58
um oh okay Johnny thank you for the
1:26:06
[Music] definition Rob oh look at that Rob Dog
1:26:12
right Rob Dog enjoys my sense of humor
1:26:18
why hello Rob nice to meet you thank you for the $5 it's appre
1:26:28
appreciated um thank you thank you thank you thank
1:26:33
you I'm sorry I won't stand up and toil for
1:26:39
you I will never toil for
1:26:45
anyone no really imagine me
1:26:50
twirling just no oh horny thank you so much uh for for
1:26:58
the Beats yeah imagine me
1:27:05
twirling I don't even twirl like cam cam boys have you ever
1:27:11
seen me twirl whilst cing [Laughter]
1:27:18
no no um
1:27:25
twirling as in as in doing a little spin a little spin oh like look at
1:27:33
me I'm I just don't have the yeah I'm not the I'm not a
1:27:38
twirler I'm sorry [Music]
1:27:49
um oh god um
1:27:55
can you do your my bubbly skit
1:28:01
again oh thank you wait thank
1:28:09
you the only T I want is more oh karate you sound like my kind of viewer you
1:28:17
sound like the type of viewer that I like here thank you karate Cowboy okay
1:28:24
if if I was to be more bubbly I'd be like a thank you thank you so much karate Cowboy a thank
1:28:34
you
1:28:42
thanks thanks Andy karate thank you um
1:28:48
yeah guys it's just it's just not within my DNA I I
1:28:54
don't know guys like yeah the
1:29:00
whole singing and dancing thing
1:29:11
um it's just
1:29:17
no oh thank you I I look I think it's a matter of lighting if I had better by
1:29:24
the way by the way people who are more chirpy and bubbly that it's not I'm not saying that
1:29:32
they're not sincere either uh I I I think that you can be
1:29:38
very sincere and very genuine and be just a naturally bubbly
1:29:45
person I'm just not oh thanks Andy um yeah
1:29:58
I think I think it would be you know what though I think it would
1:30:04
be difficult to be seen as a bubbly
1:30:11
person be P I guess perceive that way because you you almost feel like you have to constantly have this mask on
1:30:20
Chu to be happy all the time
1:30:25
right because and and and I'll be honest like even for me in terms of being on twitch
1:30:33
sometimes I was um afraid of being emotionally vulnerable because I'm like
1:30:39
H then if people know all my like
1:30:45
emotional you know things I go through then suddenly
1:30:50
they will perceive me differently and and not be able to have a laugh with me
1:30:55
and [ __ ] talk with me because at the back of the there's that paranoia that oh no at the back of their mind they're
1:31:01
going to think that she's such a serious cry baby all the time you know but like
1:31:11
whatever whatever whoever stays stays whoever
1:31:17
goes goes you can't you can't satisfy
1:31:22
everyone you know know in saying that I I do I I can be a
1:31:28
bit of a chronic people pleaser and I think that in itself I have mentioned
1:31:34
this before people pleasing uh there is also a certain
1:31:39
level of narcissism in involved in that in having the desire uh for people to
1:31:46
perceive you as a nice generous person in opposed to being nice to be
1:31:55
nice you know rather than being nice to elicit a
1:32:01
uh respon uh specific response um you
1:32:10
know like let's be honest let let's be honest how often do you guys do
1:32:16
something for others because you want a a a you know particular response in turn
1:32:25
if you're being
1:32:32
honest uh hang
1:32:39
on cynical I'm I don't think it's cynical I
1:32:44
just think it's you know
1:32:51
reality I'm like yeah know I mean I think a lot of people are like that right
1:32:58
um it's not about being cynical it's just that's just is it is like that for
1:33:05
a lot of people um hang
1:33:16
on I think a lot most people want feel as a bit appreciated as well I mean
1:33:26
imagine I know if you bake a cake for someone and they don't say thank you
1:33:32
let's be honest would you be a bit upset you'd be like [ __ ] you I just spent 10
1:33:38
hours baking this [ __ ] cake for you you can't even say thanks in return
1:33:45
you know but we shouldn't do things for we
1:33:51
we shouldn't necessarily do things to elicit specific [ __ ]
1:34:01
responses I I think in part A lot of the time we do things because we want a
1:34:06
certain reaction in return um so what was this question
1:34:13
here [Music] um so
1:34:26
so what where where are you mate the the Gan that asked for tips on
1:34:33
how oh Phoenix absolutely of course this this which person asks for
1:34:42
um is I think all of us can be manipulative
1:34:55
return doesn't have to be oh no well in in in the example of baking a cake uh
1:35:02
not receiving a a thank you is not Material it's just a thank you you know
1:35:09
oh yasan that's right yasan asked um
1:35:15
asked what tips do I have for him to pick up
1:35:24
girl wow I'd have to meet you would
1:35:32
I and also what type of girl as well what what what are we talking
1:35:38
here what what type of girl what type of boy are
1:35:43
you there there's a variety of things that you can work
1:35:52
on no money no honey that's not correct
1:35:58
guys actually but you know what refrigerated clip would you go out with a girl that
1:36:06
had no money that that was not physically what you deemed as
1:36:12
attractive you know like do do you not have expectations of a person that you
1:36:18
want to be with we all expect something from our
1:36:24
partners do we
1:36:30
not is natural I mean I'm sure you wouldn't just go out with any
1:36:36
girl randomly you would want something as
1:36:43
well we all have
1:36:50
criteria yeah
1:36:59
that see should just be yourself should just
1:37:04
be yourself should you
1:37:10
though I think you should we should all self-improve you know be the best
1:37:15
version of ourselves like I don't think anyone is so is stagnant in in their
1:37:25
identity I think yeah the greatest advice is just to be or attempt to be your best version I
1:37:34
mean would you want to be with you I know that sounds awful but darling
1:37:39
like if you you should do things for yourself first and foremost whether that
1:37:45
be improving your physical appearance whether that be educating yourself and
1:37:50
if you and then eventually you will meet someone uh but don't change
1:37:59
yourself or try to fit in a mold of what you think will get other girls to like
1:38:05
you more you know like
1:38:17
[ __ ] how do you deal with rejection I can I can struggle dealing
1:38:23
with rejection absolutely but yeah darling
1:38:29
you know actually refrigerated a clip he said if no money no honey you should
1:38:34
have money for yourself oh thank you Anonymous G like
1:38:39
won't you want money for yourself anyway like don't don't like wouldn't
1:38:49
you want to be financially stable for your
1:38:54
stuff irrespective of of getting picking up
1:39:01
[ __ ] a chick
1:39:07
like you know
1:39:13
um yeah everyone struggles with rejection like wouldn't you want to
1:39:20
be yeah like anything anything
1:39:25
it's it's it's the yeah have your own Ambitions and
1:39:34
standards um and I think a girl will be attracted
1:39:40
to that um
1:39:45
yeah unless it's a one night stand darling if it's a one night stand you
1:39:51
want then you know it's it's all the superficial [ __ ] that
1:39:57
matters if it's just a one night stand and you know get a nice haircut [ __ ]
1:40:04
go go to the shops buy yourself some [ __ ] clo nice clothes if it's a one
1:40:09
night stand and you just want a little bit of sex and that's all the superficial [ __ ] but if you want an
1:40:15
actual relationship then uh look on working on yourself first and foremost
1:40:27
yeah that's it cuz yeah you know at the club if a
1:40:32
girl just wants to [ __ ] a guy trust me she she's going to look at you know your
1:40:39
shoes and [ __ ] like that you know superficial
1:40:45
[ __ ] one night sounds easy but deeper relationship is harder to find of course
1:40:51
because a deeper relation ship requires you to work on yourself and working on
1:40:58
yourself is is hard those
1:41:07
stin well darling no one's forcing you to be
1:41:13
here right does every girl want a six-pack though I don't I've never been with a
1:41:20
guy that has a sixpack
1:41:27
yeah I've never been with n of the guys I've been with have have a
1:41:33
sixpack um
1:41:51
yeah familiar out familiar Rarity or whatever I think a lot see swis ches I
1:41:56
think a lot of people just want uh companionship as well you know so they'll be able to sort
1:42:05
of and and your standards change as you as you know your values change even what
1:42:13
you want from your partner can change
1:42:19
um so so yeah that's why relationships are aren't easy
1:42:26
as well because as you change your expectations change um the things that you want in
1:42:33
your 20s may be different from the things that you want in your 30s and so on you
1:42:43
know some and and that's the reality when you are with someone you
1:42:48
may uh change with them and you may not maybe people move in different
1:42:54
directions people value different things and
1:43:04
yeah I don't have a job and I don't drive well darling you can always get a
1:43:10
job and you can always learn how to drive
1:43:17
right that's not something you have to put yourself down over
1:43:27
gatu no you didn't
1:43:34
darling what a pointless sentence you're
1:43:41
poor you can change that there's there's no
1:43:51
um you're not trapped in
1:44:00
that Hannah what happened to falling in love with a guy who has a past
1:44:06
pass as in me falling in love with a guy as in as in would I fall in love
1:44:13
with a guy that didn't have money is that is that what you are asking
1:44:23
where is the best place to find you're asking the wrong person man like I never leave my house
1:44:33
so you know I don't I can't help you I can't
1:44:38
help you there
1:44:45
um that's true
1:44:50
V am I providing question do you want a man or just want
1:44:55
to be a widow what do you mean well my dad died when I was young uh
1:45:04
obviously why would I want my partner to to
1:45:09
die what does that what does that question even mean
1:45:18
um do you reckon the webcam is better
1:45:23
I don't know I won't say I have Daddy Issues no I have mother
1:45:32
issues um what was it what do I always say it's always it's always the
1:45:41
mother um yeah like serial killers and stuff
1:45:46
like that it's like oh it's always the mother
1:45:54
yeah well well maybe if I we could go in the bed a bit later I don't
1:46:04
know so Guys Without game often think Su successful guys have nice women due to
1:46:11
money but usually is how they are focused successful people
1:46:25
I don't know I don't know I I could I couldn't think of any any worthwhile response uh
1:46:33
Yas when I'm alone some days and I'm thinking loneliness is good or not well
1:46:39
I'm alone like it it depends like whether you are
1:46:45
comfortable with that loneliness I'm always by myself I I enjoy that
1:46:51
being alone but it sounds like do you resent being
1:46:59
alone loneliness is a state of mind correct like cuz I mean when I was
1:47:05
younger I used to hate so I used to resent the fact that I
1:47:12
wanted to be alone oh because I thought that I should be
1:47:19
more social but in reality I shouldn't have
1:47:24
to be anything I should just if I want to be alone I want to be alone you
1:47:31
know um anyway loneliness can be uh sorry I
1:47:37
wouldn't call it loneliness Solitude maybe can be very
1:47:48
addictive anyway yeah I've touched on that topic
1:47:55
um before yeah
1:48:00
solune
1:48:08
yeah do you guys have this flavor in the SES Sprite
1:48:14
lemon like the natural natural 40% less sugar great Sprite
1:48:21
taste [Music]
1:48:28
yeah actually isn't that just normal Sprite yeah lemon lime flavor I don't
1:48:36
know like what's the
1:48:44
difference they change the
1:48:51
label Rebrand did so I'm just you know making
1:48:57
sure my um pasties are stuck
1:49:04
on um NE need to buy um need to buy new
1:49:12
ones because the adhesive n is like losing its
1:49:19
stickiness um
1:49:40
yeah really I don't have a jumper Johnny I only have my coats you have to
1:49:45
remember I don't have winter clothes with me dude it's all in storage
1:49:53
still in storage I'm
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