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my name is Amanda and I'm 24 I'm going
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to share with you how on my wedding day
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I found myself alone at the altar please
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stick with me through to the very end as
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this is going to be a very long story
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being the only child my family was not
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wealthy we hardly had enough food to eat
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let alone enough money to for our rent
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because of my extraordinary intelligence
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I was able to receive a scholarship to
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middle school after school I was still
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required to assist my parents especially
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my mother my mom was a maid for the same
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family and my dad drove a car for one of
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the wealthy guys in our neighborhood I
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couldn't help but accept their task even
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if I felt ashamed of it I was granted a
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scholarship to attend a highly esteemed
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High School I attempted to groove with
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my classmates at school but they kept to
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themselves based on social standing
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there were three social classes present
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upper middle and lower strangely enough
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they knew my family history and I was in
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the bottom class due to my scholarship I
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tried out every extracurricular activity
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but due to my standing I was not
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permitted to participate in any of them
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I therefore made the decision to be
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invisible for my last year and I quickly
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graduated I was unable to attend college
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after I graduated due to my parents'
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financial situation I therefore made the
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decision to work in a clothes store as a
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sales assistant that's how I got to know
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Franklin this woman came in saying she
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wanted one of the the most stunning and
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distinctive patterns we had in the store
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and I had just started my night shift I
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showed her our most recent designs and
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assured her that it would be personally
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delivered to her address if she ordered
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it today I also asked for her address
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she handed it to me without any issues
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and offered to pay with her credit card
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sadly when she was trying to give it to
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me it fell and she lost it she then
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became extremely irrational insulting me
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and calling me names while everyone else
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in the store stood and stared I stood
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there silently and just kept
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apologizing Franklin made the decision
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to take charge he let the woman have it
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she walked out of the business right
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away declaring she would never return
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back because she felt embarrassed in
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addition to telling me to learn how to
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advocate for myself I was grateful for
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his assistance in addition he remarked
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that I looked well and that he felt
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sorry for me which is why he chose to
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assist me in addition he introduced
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himself and informed me that he owned
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his own business and was involved in
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real estate that's when our friendship
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began he began to visit more frequently
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and occasionally waited until the end of
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my shift to deliver me home I explained
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to him that my family's situation
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prevented me from attending college he
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stated he chose to assist me with my
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college because he felt sorry for me he
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continued to support me over my four
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years of college and then I
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graduated naturally I was in invited to
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my graduation night which also happened
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to be Franklin's birthday he
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complimented me on my appearance and
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couldn't keep his eyes off of me when I
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arrived at that moment he asked me to
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become his girlfriend I was hesitant at
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first but eventually gave in we planted
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a kiss to seal it I wanted to start
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going to interviews and started looking
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for work but Franklin urged me not to
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worry about myself and to come work for
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him at his business because he needed a
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secretary to help with some of his tasks
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everything worked out well I got to work
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with Franklin right away Clark was one
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of his office partners and a co-owner of
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the business as soon as he introduced us
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I felt a connection with him I soon
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began working with both of them and
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everything in our life was going well
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later at his request I moved in with him
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apartment but later on I found things to
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challenging naturally I had an affair
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with Clark though I'm not sure how it
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began really nice and amiable Clark was
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a great guy he was the kind of friend
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you would want to hang out with for a
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very long time and you could easily
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click with him he was the first person
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in the office to meet me and I gave him
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a friendly greeting without realizing
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was however Franklin introduced us at
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some point later he introduced himself
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to me as a lifelong buddy and the two of
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them founded this company Clark grinned
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back at me when when I smiled at him
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Franklin would occasionally travel and
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Clark would typically visit the office
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at those times we would exchange
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greetings that's how our conversation
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began it had begun innocently enough
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with a few flirtatious exchanges here
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and there but mostly cordial but even
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though it wasn't intended our friendship
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quickly became sexual it occurred when
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Franklin chose to go on an unplanned
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business trip to inspect a property and
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complete a deal he had the
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option to delegate this task to someone
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else later he went leaving me alone in
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the office I was irritated and turned to
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my work to block off the
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hurt it wasn't enough though I made the
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decision to spill it all over a drink I
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made the decision to visit a pub in
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decompress staying at home by myself in
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the workplace was not what I wanted I
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needed someone to talk to since I felt
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so alone I searched my head for someone
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to call but since I didn't have many
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friends I couldn't think of anyone I
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went to the bar and requested a few
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beers from the bartender I was calling
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my name when I Heard a Voice I
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recognized I was a touch Tipsy I noticed
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Clark as I looked up and he had a
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troubled or concerned expression on his
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face I felt as though I was
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hallucinating things because I was
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intoxicated but I couldn't tell all I
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could do was nod and grin when he asked
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whether I was okay I shot again and just
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as I was about to pull the trigger Clark
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into intervened I was becoming
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intoxicated already so he instructed me
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to quit drinking not only did I feel
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like I was getting wasted but I'm not
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even close to five shots in when I
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instructed him to get over here he
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didn't respond I was feeling a certain
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way and I believe that's why he was
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holding my hands I was inebriated
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Franklin was not touching me enough we
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hadn't truly shared a good night's sleep
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or spent quality time together in a long
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time I didn't feel anything so we either
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did nothing at all or a little Quicky I
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believe Clark made the decision to sit
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and drink with me after realizing he
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couldn't stop me when he asked me what
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was wrong I was reluctant to answer at
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first but eventually I opened up about
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how lonely I felt and how Franklin was
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running out of my time Clark said that
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he understood and that he would speak
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with Franklin after he returned from his
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trip I didn't have the strength to tell
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him no even though I wanted to Clark
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stopped me when he noticed that I was no
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longer able to stand after I continued
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to drink I objected when he informed me
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it was time to head home at last I
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consented with him but I assured him
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that I could support myself on my own I
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got up and nearly collapsed but he held
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me and gave me a funny look he warned me
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that I would get into an accident if I
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continued to drive this way since he
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didn't drink much I assume he was merely
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slightly inebriated since I had my keys
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he made the decision to take take me
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home he put me on the bed when we came
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home but my arms were still around him I
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did the first thing that came to mind
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because I needed someone at that precise
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moment and I didn't want him to
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leave I still hold myself responsible
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for the fact that I was intoxicated when
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I touched him I was expecting him to
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push me away but instead he offered me a
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passionate kiss I didn't want it to end
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as it felt like heaven we had taken off
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our clothing and before I knew it was
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sharing a bed it was one of the finest
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emotions I had ever experienced and even
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though I couldn't recall much I knew I
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was the one who started it besides he
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was really wonderful in bed when we woke
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up the following day we both felt
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strange and bad but I didn't regret it
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for some reason I knew I wanted it and I
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held Franklin responsible since he had
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slept with me for so long and never had
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my time being the best friend's betrayer
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made Clark feel bad he told me this and
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said he wanted to tell Franklin but I
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told him not to so that's I know I had
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no opinion about the matter at all we
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didn't need to tell Franklin about this
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so I reassured Clark all the same it was
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his fault because he was too busy
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working to give me the attention I so
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desperately needed I never would have
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imagined that I would find myself
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wanting Clark more it was peculiar deep
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down I couldn't help but feel anything
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for him I felt bad for for betraying
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Franklin at first but it was too late I
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was receiving more from Clark than from
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Franklin I'd been lacking the care and
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affection in my relationship with
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Franklin until he swept me off my feet I
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continued attempting to get together
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with Clark but he seemed to be avoiding
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me Franklin then made the decision to
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take me out for lunch at a cafe where he
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unexpectedly proposed to me I could have
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refused and put an end to things but my
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love for Franklin did not change I
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replied yes since I didn't want this to
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end end and to the cheers of the other
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patrons in the cafe he placed the ring
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on my finger my phone beeped and I saw
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that Clark had left me a message as we
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awkwardly sat down again I took a
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cursory look at the television and was
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excited about seeing him later that
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evening but when I looked up and saw the
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bewilderment in Franklin's eyes I
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briefly felt a surge of remorse come
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over me and a knot develop in my throat
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as I tried to think of something to say
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telling him it was a text from a buddy
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when he inquired as to why my phone had
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buzzed he become even more perplexed
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upon learning that I had no Pals however
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I informed him that I became friendly
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with an employee in the now workplace he
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grinned broadly and told me how glad he
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was that I had done that evening I crept
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out of the house while Franklin was
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sound asleep to meet Clark at a nearby
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Motel I left Franklin asleep fearing
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that he may wake up and experience iced
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A Rush of both excitement and Terror as
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I approached the motel I told Clark that
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I had to get back home before Franklin
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became suspicious so we had to move
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quickly he claimed he felt guilty for
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betraying his best buddy and wanted to
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apologize for his lack of communication
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with me I asked him if we could still be
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together and told him it was okay
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because I knew from the way he was
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staring at me that he was interested in
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me before I returned home I was just
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with Clark for 2 hours unfortunately for
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me Franklin slept through the entire
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time I had to think of new
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justifications to slip out and see Clark
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because I knew this was a risky move
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it's undeniable that Franklin is my
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first choice if given the chance while
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Clark was only a passing phase that I
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like to sleep with we immediately set
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about organizing the wedding which was
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to take place over the course of the
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following two months I requested that we
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take it slow and extend our date by 3
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months instead of six
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but Franklin insisted he was eager to
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marry me without realizing that deep
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down all I cared about was my
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extramarital affair but even though I
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was concerned about this I continued I
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ignored it and kept thinking of reasons
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to get together with Clark I am aware
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that he was still upset with us for
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sharing a bed I made up reasons like
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meeting with our wedding planner going
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to a dress fitting or sampling a cake
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which Franklin was positive she was
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meeting with Clark but he was still
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attempting to avoid me I used the two
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weeks leading up to the wedding as a
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nice Escape going to my dress fitting
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for the last weeks before it was shipped
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as agreed upon earlier I headed to a
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nearby hotel to meet Clark we had a
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great time after my dress fitting and I
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had another sleep with him as usual he
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asked if I didn't have any regret at all
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and I told him that I didn't and that
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I'm much happier with him than I am with
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my prospective spouse I also said that I
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wasn't going to marry him for his money
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since he lacks passion I thought
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Franklin would never find out about the
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affair so I was overjoyed that
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everything was coming into place and
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that I was receiving everything I wanted
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including someone who could fulfill me
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and also had money but I had no idea
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that I was in for trouble at last D-Day
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arrived I was ecstatic to get up because
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it was finally the day I had been
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waiting for I moisturized my skin took a
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bath and sprayed my myself with perfume
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I put a really good hairstyle on myself
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and used very little makeup I headed to
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the event wearing my stunning long white
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gown which had pearls around the neck
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and waist Franklin wasn't there when I
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arrived I was terrified fearing the
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worst had happened to him but I quickly
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became at ease when I saw him striding
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majestically a short while later
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Franklin arrived looking Dapper in a
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lovely tuxedo I was unable to look away
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from him and I felt the same same way
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about him he leaned in and complimented
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me in a whisper saying I looked
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beautiful I flushed and smiled at his
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comment the ceremony moved along swiftly
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and when it was time to recite the vows
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and say I do he paused in the middle and
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turned to face me saying all the
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romantic things one could say to their
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overjoyed he continued adding that I
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should enjoy his surprise before he
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concluded his vows I grinned supposing
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it was a pleasant thing not realizing
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that it was destined for failure he
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called for everyone's attention and once
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he had it he addressed our parents and
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other close family members as well as
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his friends he recounted to them our
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adventure thus far and our initial
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encounter which turned out to be love at
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first sight after that he stated he had
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a video to show he motioned to Clark and
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a film was projected onto a large screen
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that was set up at the rear of the hall
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it was the footage of my last meeting
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with Clark which shocked me to no end
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everyone especially my parents who had
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high expectations for me looked at me in
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scorn and disappointment as I was
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astonished I was speechless and just
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stood there motionless everyone walked
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out in disgust and when it was just the
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two of us Franklin told me he always
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trusted me and never ever doubted me
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however I betrayed his confidence and
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respect two weeks ago after our most
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recent Affair Clark apparently felt
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terrible about how we were betraying
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Franklin with our affair fair and
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decided it was time to tell him they
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went for a property survey and this
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occurred while I was at work Franklin
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was astonished and upset with his friend
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at first but he softened toward him
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after realizing that I was the one who
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had tempted him before he gave in he was
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merely relieved that he had come clean
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but he couldn't forgive him
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entirely at that point Clark provided
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him the recording of our previous Affair
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in which I had stated that I was just
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going to marry him for his money
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this news stunned me and I turned to
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stare in horror at Clark he simply
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averted his gaze before
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leaving who am I to say that though
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since everything he said was true I
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never would have believed he could do
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this to me Franklin told me this and
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then walked off too hurt to take the
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treachery any longer I was left sobbing
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at the altar when I found I was sappur
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and poor guy h i sobbed at the altar
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because I didn't know how to face anyone
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after everything that had transpired
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I don't know how many minutes went by
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but I hurried outside and returned to
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Franklin's house hoping to ask for
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forgiveness because I couldn't let go of
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everything when I had only recently
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acquired it I waited for Franklin
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because he wasn't home as planned but he
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didn't return that day I regret what I
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did and it all began to dawn on me that
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I was a monster for even severing a
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friendship update Franklin eventually
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arrived home following the incident I
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asked if we could start again right away
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without thinking about anything and he
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said that he couldn't because he
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couldn't ignore the fact that I had an
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affair with his closest friend no less
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even as I was getting ready to get
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married he informed me that his trust
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had been irreparably broken and that he
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felt hurt and deceived I sobbed
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clutching his feet and pleading with him
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to give me another chance as I gazed
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down in shame he picked me up and told
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me that although he loved me very much
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he was unable to continue to give me a
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chance and requested me to go
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embarrassed I made the decision to meet
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with Clark and perhaps establish a
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connection as soon as I confronted him
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when I got to his house he stated I had
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no shame I explained to him why he went
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to tell Franklin about us and betray me
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but all he did was shake his head and
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ask if I could hear myself he claimed
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that I came across as uninterested in
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anything save myself I couldn't say
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anything about it even though I knew he
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he disregarded me and told me to focus
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on improving myself when I asked if we
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could return to our previous state I
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encouraged him to forget about it and
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let's move on with our lives hoping that
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maybe I could start over with him since
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I didn't want to lose
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anything yes he yelled at me that I had
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lost my sense of reason and self-respect
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while laughing and threatening to stop
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that from happening he also warned me
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not to get in touch with any of us ever
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again because they had severed their
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relationship in addition I lost my job
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and I was informed not to waste time
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with Franklin because the latter had
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already called him to express his desire
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to speak with no one additionally he
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instructed him to inform me that he had
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previously ordered someone to transport
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all of my possessions to my parents'
18:18
home the anguish I was experiencing grew
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intolerable and I felt as though I had
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been ordered to bed several times
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shutting the door in my face he
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instructed me to get out of his
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apartment his comments began to replay
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in my head as I walked a few steps
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closer to the elevator and I instantly
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passed out and when I opened my eyes
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Franklin was with me in the hospital at
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first I was relieved believing he had
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forgiven me but he later told me he was
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only here because he was phoned by the
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person who had rescued me since his
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dial after that he left me and I didn't
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hear from him ever again my parents
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threw me out of my apartment after I
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recovered stating I was old enough but I
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know it was because they didn't want the
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stories about what I did to get out of
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control and caused them difficulties at
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work I had spent all of my money on
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shoes clothes and other worthless items
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so I had nowhere to go and none left I
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tried to sell my stuff and I was able to
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apartment I felt abandoned and overcome
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guilt I was aware that I had acted badly
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and that I would have to pay the price
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for It ultimately all I could feel was
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regret over a moment of passion I had
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lost my family my spouse and my
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self-respect all at once I determined to
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never make the same mistake again
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knowing that I would never be able to
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restore the damage I had caused before
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it's too late no matter how hard you try
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to atone for a sin certain
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transgressions will never be forgiven I
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realized as I lay in bed my heart heavy
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with regret betrayal has the power to
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tear lives apart leaving behind nothing
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but crushed hopes and hearts I would
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live with the consequences of my conduct
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for the rest of my days Having learned
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my lesson the hard way I would suggest
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that nobody attempt the same prank I
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performed as they might wind up in a
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similar situation as mine or worse