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it's fair to say that I'm failing
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miserably at this whole YouTube thing
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two years in over 80 videos later and my
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numbers are far from impressive my
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subscriber count is just over
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550 and I'm miles away from the enviable
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monetization target of 1,000 subscribers
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and 4,000 watch hours actually I'm
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technically doing worse than I was
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earlier in 2024 because I could vividly
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remember having a around 2,400 watch
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hours a few months ago compared to the
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mere 1,600 watch hours I have now and
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don't even get me started on the fact
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that I only gained one uno mas
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subscriber in the last 28 days if I only
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start to think about the amount of hours
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I spend scripting filming and editing
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one video to get a handful of views I
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would be left speechless
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and I don't think I even have to mention
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that so far I made exactly Zer actually
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it's negative dollars if I consider the
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time and resources I invest in all this
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so yeah I'll be the first to admit that
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these metrics are horrible they're
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depressing so why do I continue I
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already have a full-time job I'm a wife
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a mom I have so much that fills my day
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why do I continue to create these videos
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when quite frankly it seems seems like a
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complete waste of time well the answer
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is quite simple actually I truly believe
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in the message I'm sharing I'm
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passionate about all things wellness and
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self-improvement and I won't let the
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numbers distract me from the value that
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I think that I'm creating each video is
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a chance to reach someone to inspire
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someone even if it's just one person at
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a time and maybe that one person will
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pass the message along creating ripples
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I may never actually see let me be clear
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I want to create value for others but of
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course I have my own selfish intentions
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as well creating these videos has been
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just as valuable for me when I make a
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video it's not just about delivering
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surface level information I challenge
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myself to think deeply to research to
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learn and then refine my message as I
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film through this process I end up
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learning so much not only about the
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topic but about myself plus regardless
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of what these numbers say I know deep
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down that my videos are improving they
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may not be great but they are better and
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sometimes better is good enough recently
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I rewatched one of my earliest videos
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and I was struck by how much I improved
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not only in my delivery and confidence
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but in my willingness to keep showing up
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even when success feels Out Of Reach
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I'm facing my fear of failure pushing
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myself to learn new skills and embracing
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imperfection it reminding me of this
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quote by James Clear success is the
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product of daily habits not once in a
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lifetime transformation have you ever
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thought about success that way do you
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give yourself credit for showing up even
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when the outcome isn't perfect if
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nothing else at least I am getting a
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free lesson on grit which is apparently
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more important than talent and
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intelligence great is that sustained
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passion and perseverance is that quiet
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determination to keep going I'm sure
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you've heard the quote by Bill Gates
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most people overestimate what they can
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do in one year and underestimate what
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they can do in 10 years it's such a
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powerful reminder isn't it in a world
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where we often crave instant results it
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can be easy to feel discouraged when
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progress doesn't come as quickly as we
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like but what if we looked at our goals
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with the patience and dedication of a
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10-year Vision what do you think could
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change in your life if you gave yourself
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the grace of time if you trusted the
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small consistent actions to add up
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rather than expecting an immediate
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breakthrough we often Overlook the value
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of the journey itself but what it it is
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the process that is actually shaping us
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how would your health improve if you
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commit to showing up for yourself in
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small ways for 10 years how would your
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relationships deepen if you nurtured
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them consistently with love and
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attention year after your year for 10
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years in church last Sunday the pastor
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mentioned that the church is an 800 Pew
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Sanctuary yet on most Sundays we only
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have about 30 to 40 persons there and
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although that may be a fact I'm thinking
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about how transformative these church
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services have been for me how much value
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and meaning they add to my life perhaps
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even more than the larger congregations
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I've attended what if this pastor
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decided that these 30 persons are not
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worth his time and effort what if he
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decided that because the numbers weren't
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what he envisioned his message didn't
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matter he would miss the opportunity to
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perform impact the lives of these 30
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people including me the same applies to
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anything you do in life don't let the
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numbers derail you from the value you're
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creating whether it's a tiny book club
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or a handful of close friends you
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encourage those small numbers matter
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each person each interaction matters let
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me be candid with you for a minute
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creating these YouTube videos is hard
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and the results can be extremely
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demotivating it could easily become
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toxic especially if you aren't careful
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about your mindset and priorities so
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although I've decided to keep creating
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these YouTube videos because of all the
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collateral benefits I'm doing so on my
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own terms even if it means growing more
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slowly I want to keep YouTube as a space
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for growth not a source of stress I'm
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choosing an approach that's less
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overwhelming and one that respects my
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bigger priorities spirituality family
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career and personal Wellness for one I
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simply can't commit to a rigid schedule
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right now trust me I really want to and
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I'll try my best to post as often as I
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can there's just too much on my plate
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sometimes and you know what at times I
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need to go slow so that I don't end up
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stopping altogether some people thrive
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with strict timelines to keep themselves
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moving forward but for me it often
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backfires I tend to set overly ambitious
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deadlines and then end up being really
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really hard on myself when I fall short
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instead I've learned that a more
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flexible approach works better for me
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for now at least it allows me to stay
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motivated without adding unnecessary
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stress even as you try to achieve your
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goals I want to encourage you to define
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success on your own terms it's easy to
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feel pressured to do more to get ahead
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but at what cost your mental health your
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that's too high a price to pay pursue
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your goals with passion yes but also
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with balance patience and Grace my
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second criteria is that I won't be
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niching down even further because I
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simply don't want to talk about one
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topic over and over again I refuse to do
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that I don't want to be Ted to yet
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another boss aka the YouTube algorithm I
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have more than enough bosses have you
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ever found yourself so wrapped up in a
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che leaving something that has started
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to drain you instead of inspiring you
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often holding on to tightly can stifled
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creativity growth and happiness for some
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of my goals in the past I had an All or
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Nothing approach if I couldn't give
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something my full attention or effort
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I'd convince myself to not do it at all
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but there's something uniquely
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satisfying about working on a project
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that's mine where I can set the
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direction and the pace have you ever
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felt that sense of fulfillment from
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pouring your heart into something
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personal that feeling of building
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something that pushes you to work harder
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creating videos has done that for me and
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unexpectedly it's also reconnected me to
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a passion I thought I'd Left Behind
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writing as a child writing was my safe
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space it was how I processed emotions
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made sense of the world and ped my voice
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I was that kid talked away in a corner
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scribbling poems and stories this is one
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of the books I would write in I've had
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this one since 1999 that's almost 26
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years for years my love for writing was
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buried under the responsibilities of
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career and family rediscovering writing
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through blogging and creating videos has
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been like finding a piece of myself I
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didn't realize was missing it's not just
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about the words it's about the joy and
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Pur purpose that come from creating
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something from nothing and that's why I
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want to encourage you don't just consume
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create create in whatever way feels
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meaningful for you whether it's writing
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painting gardening cooking or something
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entirely different there's something
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transformative about creating something
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from nothing there's a quote by Maya
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Angelo that I love there's no greater
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Agony than bearing an Untold Story
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inside you so what's your untold story
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is there a passion you've left behind
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rediscovered sometimes the things that
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bring us the most Joy are the very
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things we set aside maybe it's time to
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pick them back up again I truly believe
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that I will look back on these very
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years and see them as the foundation of
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something greater either way the skills
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the insights and self-awareness I've
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gained are invaluable and there the
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reasons why I keep showing up camera on
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ready to share whatever I can if this
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resonates with you maybe you'll
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subscribe and keep watching after all I
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might be here for 10 years Jokes Aside
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I'm here for the Long Haul growing at my
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own pace and learning as I go because by
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my standards I am succeeding and that's
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a win I'm proud to claim
