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hey guys thank you so much for clicking
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on this video I really appreciate
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it
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um if you're not into the whole
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like me discussing what's going on in my
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life or you're just not here for a huge
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monologue or whatever then you can click
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off this video it's just me getting a
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couple of things off my
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chest and possibly explaining why I
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haven't
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really posted
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anything but in that case you could go
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ahead and click off this video you go
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watch something else that's completely
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fine you will not hurt my
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feelings but uh if you're still here
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after this then I might as well just go
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ahead and get down to the uh to the
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nitty-gritty
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recently I've kind of gone dark for a
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long time and there are a few reasons
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I've recently got married and I gained a
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job that I do not mind working in a few
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other things that occupy my time be it
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related to my mental state or
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not so why am I making this statement
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now what's going on I've done nothing
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ever since my last
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video and that's true and these are very
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valid points to which I will explain to
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the best of my
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ability I barely worked my new job for a
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year and on December 27th of
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2023 I have sustained an injury I fell
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off a ladder and broke my leg more
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specifically the tibial lateral area
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this injury has set me on a path that I
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never thought I'd
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take there were
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pros of course I've I qualified for
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workers comp which is great so I got
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paid during the recovery and most parts
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of the treatment were
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free I got time away from work which
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allowed me to catch up on a few things
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such as arts and you know my gaming
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Hobby and catching up with a few friends
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on my social group
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online the cons might not be many but
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they still weigh heavy on my
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mind the time that I spent in recovery I
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felt like I pissed away in not doing
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anything to further my passions and
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secondly I wasn't
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really earning
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my
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money I am a man of
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principle everything I gained was
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because I worked hard to earn it and
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what I receive should reflect the work I
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put out to get
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it they got me thinking about what I
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actually wanted to do for a career
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become an animator or artist or
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something along the lines of
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that but um my life had a funny way of
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turning away from that path to focus on
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things that were what I thought were
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more
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important such as Financial stability
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and you know my family I'm married now
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and I have a job that kind of treats me
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well you know and that will always come
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first in regards to the job though I
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don't fully enjoy it I don't want to
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spend the rest of my life crawling in
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tight PL uh tight spaces sorry or having
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to swallow my fear of heights because
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that's what my job calls for I don't
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want to have to walk on eggshells for
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people who don't understand what I'm
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trying to do for them and I hate having
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to live with the fear that if I miss
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something important or if I don't do
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exactly everything to the tea there will
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dire
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consequences after that it could really
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affect my
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future you're probably wondering at this
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point what I do that would warrant these
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fears I am an alarm technici for a local
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company and acting as their fire
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inspector my brother got me the job when
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I needed one and I would be forever
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grateful for it but my injury gave me a
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lot of time to think about it to see if
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this is what I really
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wanted and
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well no I never really wanted this I
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settled and it's got me in this prison
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of self-built
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obligations I never needed this job I
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needed money and I tried my hardest to
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bury everything deep down swallow my
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pride and press
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forward I was doing this for my wife my
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future so we could have whatever we
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wanted and be comfortable in the
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end
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so during my
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recovery I decided I was going to focus
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more on what made me happy Art
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animation
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creation I honestly don't see why I
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shouldn't my wife supports me and she
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honestly believes that I'm a great
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artist but my modesty won't allow
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it there are better artists out there
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than me I'm just doing my
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best a job is a job and I will do my job
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but at the end of the day I am an
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artist it's who I am as a person not
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some plastic smile who's standing in
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front of your door and hope there's
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nothing wrong so that he could be out in
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less than 4
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hours I have Ambitions dreams emotions
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thoughts
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desires and yet I've been reduced to a
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thing a thing that just takes orders and
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if it doesn't do a good job it's the
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thing's fault despite trying his best
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and desperately trying to keep its job
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so it could have a paycheck to afford
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food and pay bills for a house to rest
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in only to wake up tomorrow and do it
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all over
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again now is this a rant is this a
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Moment of clarity realization an
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outburst I just I don't know
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anymore I just know one thing I want to
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create I see my wife behind me as I'm
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doing this this and writing this script
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she's slaving away on a piece that she
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wants to finish for the next Fan event
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or whatever she wants to do and at one
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point I did ask myself why why does she
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do it coming home from work broken beat
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and scarred to work on something that
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might not even get the real attention
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that it
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deserves and then
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I I see that look on her face when she
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finally
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finishes that bright smile and the pride
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that fills her when she looks at the
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final product she never really cared
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about the views or the subs or
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anything it was something that made her
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happy and the fact that she had
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something to contribute made her
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day I I want to be more like that it
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will be more like my
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wife that has that same drive to create
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improve create improve create
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improve
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she's she's come a long way and after
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doing a few pieces
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myself I see that I have
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two we're artists it's all we
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know everything else
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is just a shell of
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expectations that others have put on
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us it's an AA mask we wear every day
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only to Claw at it and rip it off when
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we're done using
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it but um I think that's all I pretty
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much have to say about this
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situation like I said I want to focus on
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a few things things that I want to do
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but it won't stop me from doing the
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things that I need to
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do if you want to support me on this
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endeavor
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please
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please leave a comment
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below I could actually use some decent
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advice
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on how to grow as an artist I could
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always use some extra scratch so tips on
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monetizing that would be pretty neat as
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well I honestly don't want money unless
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I have earned it but if you believe
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that's the case your support will go a
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long way and I will do my part to
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support other artists as
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well if you want I'll leave some of my
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wife's like art socials Below in the uh
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in the description so you could check
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her out
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she's really big on anime and she does
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wonderful work on you know in my opinion
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and you could tell her I sent
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you and uh that being the case I hope
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you enjoyed the video I've I'm going to
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be working on a speed draw you know for
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this you know for this video so you have
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something pretty to look at
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but
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that being said just
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um yeah if you have a moment just leave
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a comment anything
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really just to let me know that you
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actually watch the whole thing
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and that I have some sort of community
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out
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there but you know I'm just small time
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so I'm not really expecting
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anything but I do love you guys I really
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do and uh I hope you all
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understand that this is the you know
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this has practically been the reason why
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I haven't been posting much it's it's
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honestly it's mostly my
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fault um I have trouble sitting down and
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put myself in a in a place to where I
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could actually work on stuff but um I'm
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going to be doing everything I can to to
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change
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that so that I
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can do more you know actually want to do
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this
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stuff but I hope you have a great day a
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great week a great month year great life
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I wish you all the best and uh I'll see
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you soon bye
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