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you've been fighting against the world
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since before you left home how did you
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figure it out yet the more you fight the
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more pain you caused yourself mother
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you're dead you can't be here I know
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this was too good to be true these are
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just cheap pollution urchins that is
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what is happening to my voice just my
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voice sound weird to you and what's
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Hafiz what's wrong with your face
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did you get that second mouth oh the
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we are obviously the victims of a
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tasteless joke being perpetuated
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I mean we're being made fools of aren't
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we I get out of here I'm going to show
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that hermit what you get for messing
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avoiding expecting to find inside
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himself just letters squishy bits it or
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no if I vomit on you I'm gonna put you
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to know I'm sorry thank you it relieves
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me to see there's at least one positive
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influence in my son's life after all
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these years thoughtlessly how could you
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say that I only wanted you and father to
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be proud of me I was going to be the
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perfect vessel I was going to be a
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better more full of the plan this year
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with you overall the plan it filled you
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with a joy I could never feel I wanted
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it but being a labourer made me
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miserable I was better than that
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you certainly convinced yourself you
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were but don't feel bad we continually
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live ourselves we do stories
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if it's us that we are in control of
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these stories are help me try to make
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sense of our lives but they are not real
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are they they're just stories you need
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to drop your story and see the truth I
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could tell you all manner of stories if
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I want I'm sticking up to alcohol from
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you want me to get my my discipline like
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controlling but I can't I can't
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without order there is chaos no that's
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not true the basis of everything is
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order not chaos it's true I know it is
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so did you why are you tonight before
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you died the plan made you happy
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this whole thing is it's just a farce
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right just just my own brain working
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against me you couldn't be alright hello
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what why do you look like me are you
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control I have no doubts and I don't
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exist yet you have judged yourself
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against me your whole life
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why why do you rate yourself for not
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I don't feel right about this anymore I
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need to get out of here
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you asked for this why are you fighting
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it the same reason you always do the
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fear of the unknown not having control
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is this the answer because it sure
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sounded like an answer then I don't
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understand who are you again and what do
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you look like me no one uptight
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holier-than-thou preacher man is enough
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of a hassle now we got to time to go
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captain before it gets worse
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he's not he's looking for a new way to
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organize reality in his head a new story
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about happy you the continued me that's
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nothing you can't be like I totally been
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searching for the answer to the equation
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be because it will set us free free
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bonus by removing the need to be paid to
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have your life completely controlled the
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illusion of certainty
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your obsession allows you to avoid the
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I'm axis me I'm real you can't convince
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please don't convince me enough
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the concept of Max is what's not real by
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the architect architecture how could I
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have believed in an architect that's
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I must be losing my mind completely what
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you're saying almost makes sense
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we exist inside our thoughts thinking
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we're in control that's it isn't it
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we have no control over anything
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it's all lies how could I not have seen
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this but how do we escape ourselves
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I see you're back with us
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feared we lost you there never seen
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anyone pass out yet stay upright before
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I woke up the illusions I built for
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myself just fell away I'm no longer
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interpreting I'm experiencing everything
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in a way perhaps it's more accurate to
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say I was asking the wrong questions I
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understand so much more now I see it all
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all there is to be experienced to be
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lived of course there is pain and loss
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but the suffering is caused by trying to
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control reality clinging to the way you
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want things to be not enjoying the way
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I am content I finally found what I was
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looking for even though I was looking
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I find myself marveling at the complex
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simplicity of the fibonacci spiral
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something vexing uke I wouldn't say my
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parents disowned me strictly speaking
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but before they died they accused me of
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thoughtlessly abandoning them I couldn't
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understand it I was only trying to make
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them proud by becoming a better vessel
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for the plan to feel the joy they felt I
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was so certain my potential was wasted
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as a laborer and was willing to risk
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everything just to prove to them that
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I was lost as guided
